Munki
18-02-20, 15:19
Aren't we crazy the way we worry more when we're going away? Away from creature comforts!
I found myself actually feeling EXCITED about my holiday the other day. I packed my case to alleviate last minute worries and felt a wonderful feeling of adrenaline rush though my body. Immediately, my head said 'No! You CAN'T feel excited. You've been away before and felt anxiety and have been okay. Being excited changes the whole pattern of things. G back to anxiety at once!'
So, I listened to my brain and thought, 'fair point.' Excitement has never featured before, so best go back to worrying about health and other worries, that way you know you'll be okay!
It made me realise that we're actually disallowing ourselves from feeling excited or happy. As though, we don't deserve it! Why, though? Why can't we allow ourselves to feel excited and happy?
So now I'm at that middle, limbo place where I AM excited but not sure whether it's a 'safe' place!
What are we like!!
I found myself actually feeling EXCITED about my holiday the other day. I packed my case to alleviate last minute worries and felt a wonderful feeling of adrenaline rush though my body. Immediately, my head said 'No! You CAN'T feel excited. You've been away before and felt anxiety and have been okay. Being excited changes the whole pattern of things. G back to anxiety at once!'
So, I listened to my brain and thought, 'fair point.' Excitement has never featured before, so best go back to worrying about health and other worries, that way you know you'll be okay!
It made me realise that we're actually disallowing ourselves from feeling excited or happy. As though, we don't deserve it! Why, though? Why can't we allow ourselves to feel excited and happy?
So now I'm at that middle, limbo place where I AM excited but not sure whether it's a 'safe' place!
What are we like!!