Golden
02-03-20, 03:06
So idk where to post this and it’s partly just to get it out somewhere, but maybe someone can relate or something. So I have pretty constant GAD, plus health anxiety and social anxiousness as well. I’ve never had therapy because I’ve always just ‘existed’ this way. I have pretty bad self esteem issues and always have and in my marriage for years it has caused issues where I constantly think my husband is cheating, will cheat, is hiding any number of things, Thinks other women would be a better wife, more fun, sweeter,etc. It has caused a lot of fights over the years and I recognize that it can be a real issue. I can’t seem to stop the ‘what if’ thoughts and the thoughts that I can’t trust him. I never have. I was like this with a previous boyfriend when I was young so I know that this is a struggle I can’t seem to get hold of.
Problem is we just went thru a really bad patch in our marriage where basically the divorce topic cane up and my husband said he can’t just be constantly accused of things For the rest of his life because it has him at his wits end. We have patched thru this after over a week of hardly speaking - I have some issues I want addressed too but I still can’t stop thinking the worst. Even now, he went to the gym because he has been trying to get his health better and I can’t shake the feeling of not trusting him. I know if I say anything it will just be bad. But idk what to do any more.
Can therapy actually help with this kind of thinking? Or am I doomed to Ruin my marriage because Of deep insecurity. 🤦*♀️ I also don’t want my small children to end up with issues like I have. I’m feeling pretty hopeless- If you got this far, thank you. I am so down right now and with all this marital stress my anxiety has been absolutely thru the roof.
Problem is we just went thru a really bad patch in our marriage where basically the divorce topic cane up and my husband said he can’t just be constantly accused of things For the rest of his life because it has him at his wits end. We have patched thru this after over a week of hardly speaking - I have some issues I want addressed too but I still can’t stop thinking the worst. Even now, he went to the gym because he has been trying to get his health better and I can’t shake the feeling of not trusting him. I know if I say anything it will just be bad. But idk what to do any more.
Can therapy actually help with this kind of thinking? Or am I doomed to Ruin my marriage because Of deep insecurity. 🤦*♀️ I also don’t want my small children to end up with issues like I have. I’m feeling pretty hopeless- If you got this far, thank you. I am so down right now and with all this marital stress my anxiety has been absolutely thru the roof.