skyisblue
25-04-20, 00:40
After six weeks of tormenting myself through Dr. Google inside my house because of the lockdown, I discovered that a nearby multi-speciality clinic opened a few days ago, but on a limited capacity. Basically, the doctors manning the clinics were PCPs like family medicine doctors and internists (internal medicine). Unfortunately, no orthopedic specialist was on duty since our country went into hard lockdown.
The doctor who saw me was an internal medicine doctor. I told her about the hard lump on front of my right knee which I discovered when I was folding my legs in the sofa (again, the lump is not visible if my legs are straight or if I'm in a normal sitting position).
She saw and felt the lump. She laughed a bit and said that she thinks it could be just a normal part of my bone in the knee, just a prominent one. She said our bodies aren't necessary symmetrical. She also mentioned that the fact that there was no pain, no swelling, no other symptoms, she was inclined to believe it was nothing to lose sleep over.
She granted my request to have an x-ray just to confirm. So after that consultation, I went into the x-ray services and had my knee photographed. The technician said results will be out in 3 days.
Now as I sit here and type this, I couldn't help but let dark thoughts take over me again. My mind goes, "How could she say those reassuring things? She's not an orthopedic specialist!"
What I've learned from Dr. Google is that majority of lumps in the bone are actually benign tumors (with scary-sounding names), BUT, there is always that small chance that it could turn into the big C. Of course, as an HA sufferer, I'm inclined to catastrophize that even if this turns out to be a harmless tumor, I will always live in fear that anytime it could turn into the big C (I'm 29 years old).
Can anybody please help me calm down as I wait for the results?
The doctor who saw me was an internal medicine doctor. I told her about the hard lump on front of my right knee which I discovered when I was folding my legs in the sofa (again, the lump is not visible if my legs are straight or if I'm in a normal sitting position).
She saw and felt the lump. She laughed a bit and said that she thinks it could be just a normal part of my bone in the knee, just a prominent one. She said our bodies aren't necessary symmetrical. She also mentioned that the fact that there was no pain, no swelling, no other symptoms, she was inclined to believe it was nothing to lose sleep over.
She granted my request to have an x-ray just to confirm. So after that consultation, I went into the x-ray services and had my knee photographed. The technician said results will be out in 3 days.
Now as I sit here and type this, I couldn't help but let dark thoughts take over me again. My mind goes, "How could she say those reassuring things? She's not an orthopedic specialist!"
What I've learned from Dr. Google is that majority of lumps in the bone are actually benign tumors (with scary-sounding names), BUT, there is always that small chance that it could turn into the big C. Of course, as an HA sufferer, I'm inclined to catastrophize that even if this turns out to be a harmless tumor, I will always live in fear that anytime it could turn into the big C (I'm 29 years old).
Can anybody please help me calm down as I wait for the results?