Hopefulmi
27-04-20, 08:01
Hi all,
I know many of us are struggling right now so just want to send best wishes out to you all.
I am having a really bad time right now. I went back on citalopram 10mg last year (now on 20mg). I used to be more HA but it has become GA. Last July I got really bad when my eldest son (now 7) finished Year 1. My youngest had just started nursery in the April and I had just finished a teaching degree so was back to being a full time mum. I just got so upset about them getting older I couldn’t stop crying. I had another blip in December when I increased my meds but I suppose that was the 10mg just settling down.
A week ago, I noticed I had been taking 10mg instead of 20mg and had felt so low for days again. I increased back to 20mg on Tuesday. I’m still crying all the time though and it’s the same thing. I keep looking at my boys, 7 and 4, and stressing that when they are teens I’ll be too sad to look back at photos from now because they aren’t little anymore. Don’t get me wrong, I love them as they grow up and it’s nice to be able to do more, not worry about weaning and bottles and breastfeeding etc. We have a lot of fun and I’m teaching my 7 year old piano which he is enjoying etc. My 4 year old was and still is hard work a lot of the time and he is so much more fun than he was as a baby. I have my husband (he is 44 and I am 32) and I know we can do more as a couple but I feel like these are the best years and there will be nothing for me after. I am tired of crying all the time.
I just want to be happy again 😔
I know many of us are struggling right now so just want to send best wishes out to you all.
I am having a really bad time right now. I went back on citalopram 10mg last year (now on 20mg). I used to be more HA but it has become GA. Last July I got really bad when my eldest son (now 7) finished Year 1. My youngest had just started nursery in the April and I had just finished a teaching degree so was back to being a full time mum. I just got so upset about them getting older I couldn’t stop crying. I had another blip in December when I increased my meds but I suppose that was the 10mg just settling down.
A week ago, I noticed I had been taking 10mg instead of 20mg and had felt so low for days again. I increased back to 20mg on Tuesday. I’m still crying all the time though and it’s the same thing. I keep looking at my boys, 7 and 4, and stressing that when they are teens I’ll be too sad to look back at photos from now because they aren’t little anymore. Don’t get me wrong, I love them as they grow up and it’s nice to be able to do more, not worry about weaning and bottles and breastfeeding etc. We have a lot of fun and I’m teaching my 7 year old piano which he is enjoying etc. My 4 year old was and still is hard work a lot of the time and he is so much more fun than he was as a baby. I have my husband (he is 44 and I am 32) and I know we can do more as a couple but I feel like these are the best years and there will be nothing for me after. I am tired of crying all the time.
I just want to be happy again 😔