Phoenixess
27-04-20, 19:37
I’m not too sure where to post this I guess I’m just looking for emotional support.
My grandmas cat has been sick and I have been the one shouldering the responsibility of taking her to and from the vet for the last three weeks. Today the vet said there was no more that could be done and she had deteriorated too far and the kindest thing was to put her to sleep.
Each time I left with the little cat to go to the vets my grans parting words were “don’t let them put her to sleep” and I promised as far as I could that they wouldn’t do that.
Today I guess I couldn’t keep that promise and ultimately the vet had to ring my gran for her permission and explained what was happening however I had to sign the paper, say the goodbyes and send the cat to kitty heaven.
I know this was right she was very sick and the vets ultimately said due to the severity of her deterioration they could highly suspect she had cancer. But now! I am a mess.
I feel sick with GUILT!!
Oh the guilt of only had I done something else should I have not taken her to the vet? I have no idea my brain is wrecked and I’m on the verge of tears. Constantly! I feel sick myself and devastated she’s died. Should I have done it all different? Should I have taken the little cat back for a final goodbye to my grandma I just don’t know. I’m so sad [emoji24] I have got so much tension in my brain and my body. I did have a panic attack but then I was crying the emotions are so intense and painful. I’m assuming grief and shock would be a top two emotions here.
But none the less guilt is wrecking me right now and heartbreak for my grandma and grandpa that they have lost their little friend at this time of life!
So sad [emoji20]
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My grandmas cat has been sick and I have been the one shouldering the responsibility of taking her to and from the vet for the last three weeks. Today the vet said there was no more that could be done and she had deteriorated too far and the kindest thing was to put her to sleep.
Each time I left with the little cat to go to the vets my grans parting words were “don’t let them put her to sleep” and I promised as far as I could that they wouldn’t do that.
Today I guess I couldn’t keep that promise and ultimately the vet had to ring my gran for her permission and explained what was happening however I had to sign the paper, say the goodbyes and send the cat to kitty heaven.
I know this was right she was very sick and the vets ultimately said due to the severity of her deterioration they could highly suspect she had cancer. But now! I am a mess.
I feel sick with GUILT!!
Oh the guilt of only had I done something else should I have not taken her to the vet? I have no idea my brain is wrecked and I’m on the verge of tears. Constantly! I feel sick myself and devastated she’s died. Should I have done it all different? Should I have taken the little cat back for a final goodbye to my grandma I just don’t know. I’m so sad [emoji24] I have got so much tension in my brain and my body. I did have a panic attack but then I was crying the emotions are so intense and painful. I’m assuming grief and shock would be a top two emotions here.
But none the less guilt is wrecking me right now and heartbreak for my grandma and grandpa that they have lost their little friend at this time of life!
So sad [emoji20]
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