maryjane91
02-05-20, 09:53
These past 3 months have been the most stressful of my life. I have always been an anxious person and I've always experienced many physical symptoms of anxiety, but these days it's worse than it's ever been - and trust me, it's been bad before. I have severe HA as well as OCD and generalized anxiety disorder.
So a few months ago, my partner (who is also the father of my two children, aged 7 and 5) and I decided to split up after 8 ½ years together. We probably should have done this a long time ago, but we both really wanted it to work for the sake of our kids, but in the end it just didn't work out. Ever since then I've tried to find a place to live, but so far haven't been able to find anything that I can afford. I am so scared, I don't handle change well and I have never lived alone. I worry how this will affect the kids and if I am going to be able to take care of them on my own and whether I will be able to handle being on my own when they're at their dad's. And what if I have an actual physical illness and have to deal with that too? Maybe even dying? I am so scared I am not going to see my kids grow up.
Covid19 isn't exactly helping my anxiety either.
My anxiety has never, ever been this bad. I feel so anxious all the freaking time. It started (as usual) with twitching and jerking. Then the headaches. Visual disturbances. Widespread body pain and aches. Severe fatigue. Then abdominal pain and frequent visits to the bathroom. Severe nausea. Frequent urination and pelvic pain and spasms. And so on... It's been getting worse and worse these past few months.
Last night I woke up at 4 with severe headache and abdominal pain. Managed to fall back asleep. When I woke again in the morning I still had the pain and the headache. I also have back and neck pain. Then after breakfast came the nausea as usual. My friend, who's also a nurse, says it's likely caused by me not eating enough, I don't have much of an appetite when I'm anxious.
I saw my doctor two days ago, he was not concerned about my physical health, says it's obiviously caused by stress and anxiety.
I had a CBC in March which was normal except for slight iron deficiency. But I am still worried about waking up at night with headaches and abdominal pain - I know it's a red flag when it wakes you up at night. Though I'm not sure if it woke me up or if I woke up for some other reason and just happened to be in pain, as it's not unusual for me to wake up once during the night. But still.
So my question is... how bad can the physical symptoms of anxiety actually get? Part of me thinks it's no coincidence that I'm experiencing so many physical symptoms given the circumstances.
But the other part thinks that it can't possibly be just anxiety, when it's this bad.
I'm 28 years old, normal weight (maybe slightly underweight now), I eat a healthy, plantbased diet (vegan for 12 years - supplement with B12 and vitamin D, of course), I do yoga and I run (though not as much lately, as I'm often feeling too ill - been spending a LOT of time in bed with headaches and nausea these past few weeks). I take Escitalopram 10 mg. for my anxiety, though it's not been much help lately.
So a few months ago, my partner (who is also the father of my two children, aged 7 and 5) and I decided to split up after 8 ½ years together. We probably should have done this a long time ago, but we both really wanted it to work for the sake of our kids, but in the end it just didn't work out. Ever since then I've tried to find a place to live, but so far haven't been able to find anything that I can afford. I am so scared, I don't handle change well and I have never lived alone. I worry how this will affect the kids and if I am going to be able to take care of them on my own and whether I will be able to handle being on my own when they're at their dad's. And what if I have an actual physical illness and have to deal with that too? Maybe even dying? I am so scared I am not going to see my kids grow up.
Covid19 isn't exactly helping my anxiety either.
My anxiety has never, ever been this bad. I feel so anxious all the freaking time. It started (as usual) with twitching and jerking. Then the headaches. Visual disturbances. Widespread body pain and aches. Severe fatigue. Then abdominal pain and frequent visits to the bathroom. Severe nausea. Frequent urination and pelvic pain and spasms. And so on... It's been getting worse and worse these past few months.
Last night I woke up at 4 with severe headache and abdominal pain. Managed to fall back asleep. When I woke again in the morning I still had the pain and the headache. I also have back and neck pain. Then after breakfast came the nausea as usual. My friend, who's also a nurse, says it's likely caused by me not eating enough, I don't have much of an appetite when I'm anxious.
I saw my doctor two days ago, he was not concerned about my physical health, says it's obiviously caused by stress and anxiety.
I had a CBC in March which was normal except for slight iron deficiency. But I am still worried about waking up at night with headaches and abdominal pain - I know it's a red flag when it wakes you up at night. Though I'm not sure if it woke me up or if I woke up for some other reason and just happened to be in pain, as it's not unusual for me to wake up once during the night. But still.
So my question is... how bad can the physical symptoms of anxiety actually get? Part of me thinks it's no coincidence that I'm experiencing so many physical symptoms given the circumstances.
But the other part thinks that it can't possibly be just anxiety, when it's this bad.
I'm 28 years old, normal weight (maybe slightly underweight now), I eat a healthy, plantbased diet (vegan for 12 years - supplement with B12 and vitamin D, of course), I do yoga and I run (though not as much lately, as I'm often feeling too ill - been spending a LOT of time in bed with headaches and nausea these past few weeks). I take Escitalopram 10 mg. for my anxiety, though it's not been much help lately.