Murphy93
04-05-20, 22:12
Hi,
I’m not doing too well at the moment , actually haven’t been for over a year now.
I’m 29 and facing a fear that I have MND and it’s consuming every part of my life .
Been twitching for one a half years now and still can’t seem to shake it off - I would give anything too.
I used to have another account on here back in 2012 regarding a horrendous fear of lymphoma - I looked back at all my posts from that time and was actually horrified at how desperate I was - the thing that scared me most was that I was still posting in 2016 . 4 years that took of my twenties and low and behold I did not have it - needless to say my symptoms have gone.
I swore too myself I would never go back there as I felt almost suicidal and here I am facing something much bigger and terrifying and it looks like I am on track to head in the same direction .
I’m on meds I’m trying I really am but I don’t know how to stop thinking and worrying 24/7 . My body shakes twitches and aches all the time . I’m having panic attacks most evenings and I just generally feel like I have hit rock bottom again .
I see a lot of people saying “ oh I was in that als rabbit hole “ and I just want to know how did you get out of it ?
I’m so sorry if it seems like I post a lot and I do take everyone’s comments on board I just feel like this is the only place where I don’t feel alone .
Today my legs have felt like jelly my thighs my arms my backs twitching and I just feel so weak .
I’m in my 17th month now of constant worry and it’s my 30th birthday next month I honestly wish I could snap out of this .
Thanks to anyone who’s read this and made it this far lol
I’m not doing too well at the moment , actually haven’t been for over a year now.
I’m 29 and facing a fear that I have MND and it’s consuming every part of my life .
Been twitching for one a half years now and still can’t seem to shake it off - I would give anything too.
I used to have another account on here back in 2012 regarding a horrendous fear of lymphoma - I looked back at all my posts from that time and was actually horrified at how desperate I was - the thing that scared me most was that I was still posting in 2016 . 4 years that took of my twenties and low and behold I did not have it - needless to say my symptoms have gone.
I swore too myself I would never go back there as I felt almost suicidal and here I am facing something much bigger and terrifying and it looks like I am on track to head in the same direction .
I’m on meds I’m trying I really am but I don’t know how to stop thinking and worrying 24/7 . My body shakes twitches and aches all the time . I’m having panic attacks most evenings and I just generally feel like I have hit rock bottom again .
I see a lot of people saying “ oh I was in that als rabbit hole “ and I just want to know how did you get out of it ?
I’m so sorry if it seems like I post a lot and I do take everyone’s comments on board I just feel like this is the only place where I don’t feel alone .
Today my legs have felt like jelly my thighs my arms my backs twitching and I just feel so weak .
I’m in my 17th month now of constant worry and it’s my 30th birthday next month I honestly wish I could snap out of this .
Thanks to anyone who’s read this and made it this far lol