Gerri23
08-05-20, 13:53
Please someone, add some rational thoughts... As usual with stressful situations, Health Anxiety is once again rearing its ugly head. (I am taking meds but not in therapy currently - trying to fix this as soon as the world possibly allows.)
I have noticed being hypervigilant again, as it usually goes. Have managed to rationalise some symptoms, but now for some reason am obsessed with my hands. :unsure:
So, I am right handed and my right hand is bigger than my left hand. I am convinced there is some swelling on the forearm near wrist. Logic would say: it's normal to have non-symmetrical body and the swelling could be from having worked on the couch with a laptop for many days, where the wrist has not been in an ergonomic position, but flexed backwards. Maybe its some sort of tendon problem even. Health anxiety brain says: you have lymphedema. I am not diagnosed with breast cancer or anything, but since it's my biggest fear at the moment, I am convinced my right arm is bigger than my left because I have lymphedema and tumour is pressing on my lymph nodes or something.
I hate HA so much. I remember from the past that I also have noticed before the difference in hand size, but for some reason, that is not making it through my logic right now. Also, how big of a difference is normal?? I am also overweight. Does that mean my limbs can have more difference in size since fat is distributed unevenly or something? The difference is maybe 2 cm maximum on upper arms, I am not even sure if I managed to measure it correctly or not :S
Also I have never heard or read with someone's first symptom of breast cancer being lymphedema, but everything is possible in a HA brain I guess...
Has anyone else had weird fixation with sizes of their body parts?
Help :(
I have noticed being hypervigilant again, as it usually goes. Have managed to rationalise some symptoms, but now for some reason am obsessed with my hands. :unsure:
So, I am right handed and my right hand is bigger than my left hand. I am convinced there is some swelling on the forearm near wrist. Logic would say: it's normal to have non-symmetrical body and the swelling could be from having worked on the couch with a laptop for many days, where the wrist has not been in an ergonomic position, but flexed backwards. Maybe its some sort of tendon problem even. Health anxiety brain says: you have lymphedema. I am not diagnosed with breast cancer or anything, but since it's my biggest fear at the moment, I am convinced my right arm is bigger than my left because I have lymphedema and tumour is pressing on my lymph nodes or something.
I hate HA so much. I remember from the past that I also have noticed before the difference in hand size, but for some reason, that is not making it through my logic right now. Also, how big of a difference is normal?? I am also overweight. Does that mean my limbs can have more difference in size since fat is distributed unevenly or something? The difference is maybe 2 cm maximum on upper arms, I am not even sure if I managed to measure it correctly or not :S
Also I have never heard or read with someone's first symptom of breast cancer being lymphedema, but everything is possible in a HA brain I guess...
Has anyone else had weird fixation with sizes of their body parts?
Help :(