Bigthunder1990
12-05-20, 17:17
It’s been a long time since I posted here. For the most part my health anxiety is under control and but for the last couple of days my minds be up to its old games.
My health anxiety started with body wide fasics 4 years ago and have seen a neuro some 3 1/2 years ago should rule out anything nasty as I’m still alive and functional today. However I still can’t shake the feeling in the back on my mind.
Basically I feel certain muscles working and exerting effort “feeling the burn” on my right but not on my left side. E.g lower back if I do deadlifts the right side feels pumped but the left doesn’t really feel like it was working at all, same thing with my abs left doesn’t feel much in the way of burn but the right does and most concerning in my mind is with my legs when I’m out for a walk I can feel my groin and hamstring working in my right leg but not my left. It’s like a whole bunch of muscles aren’t working and I have no control over them is how it’s playing out in my head and my left side is using other muscles to compensate which gets me circling the neuro nasty drain again.
It’s just something I don’t need right now as my first bout with health anxiety left me chronically anxious and with sensorimotor OCD which I’ve started working on quite successfully with my counsellor.
I mean with I’ve basically got hyper awareness still 4 years on which is what I’m working hard at in counselling and a change in medication has helped reduce overall levels of anxiety greatly but this keeps eating at me. Rationally I think it’s hyper awareness and tension magnifying things but GAD says nope you need to worry about this. Feels like I can’t get from under this!
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My health anxiety started with body wide fasics 4 years ago and have seen a neuro some 3 1/2 years ago should rule out anything nasty as I’m still alive and functional today. However I still can’t shake the feeling in the back on my mind.
Basically I feel certain muscles working and exerting effort “feeling the burn” on my right but not on my left side. E.g lower back if I do deadlifts the right side feels pumped but the left doesn’t really feel like it was working at all, same thing with my abs left doesn’t feel much in the way of burn but the right does and most concerning in my mind is with my legs when I’m out for a walk I can feel my groin and hamstring working in my right leg but not my left. It’s like a whole bunch of muscles aren’t working and I have no control over them is how it’s playing out in my head and my left side is using other muscles to compensate which gets me circling the neuro nasty drain again.
It’s just something I don’t need right now as my first bout with health anxiety left me chronically anxious and with sensorimotor OCD which I’ve started working on quite successfully with my counsellor.
I mean with I’ve basically got hyper awareness still 4 years on which is what I’m working hard at in counselling and a change in medication has helped reduce overall levels of anxiety greatly but this keeps eating at me. Rationally I think it’s hyper awareness and tension magnifying things but GAD says nope you need to worry about this. Feels like I can’t get from under this!
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