Sarah8989
19-05-20, 01:03
Hi
This is my first post but I’ve stalked this site for years. I’ve suffered from HA for about 15 years now on and off but I’ve being having a particularly bad time over the last month or so (worse than its ever been, including panic attacks for the first time in 6 years) mostly surrounding bowel/stomach, which I’ve seen a doctor about (who wasn’t worried) but I’ve been referred for further testing. Lately I’ve been trying to find ways to cope with my anxiety and I’ve been thinking back to times when I’ve actually been ill. And it’s made me realise that when I’m actually ill, I usually have very little anxiety about it. I’m lucky that I’ve never had a serious illness, however I do have the BRCA 2 gene mutation and 2 1/2 years ago I had a preventive mastectomy and reconstruction, using fat/tissue from my stomach. It was a massive operation that took nearly 12 hours and 5 days in ICU. But the funny thing was, looking back at it I never over thought and worried too much about the (minor) compilations I had. For example after the operation my kidneys wouldn’t ‘wake up’ for a day and half. I had to get a ECG because oxygen levels were so low they thought there might be something wrong with heart and I was so anaemic I needed a blood transfusion and fainted every time I stood up.
But I always had complete faith in my doctors and what they were telling me. And they were right, I got over all the issues and I’ve had no lasting problems.
So why can’t I believe my doctor when they say my current fears (which are unlikely at my age) are unfounded.
This was really long, sorry. Just can’t sleep and wanted to let out my frustration!
This is my first post but I’ve stalked this site for years. I’ve suffered from HA for about 15 years now on and off but I’ve being having a particularly bad time over the last month or so (worse than its ever been, including panic attacks for the first time in 6 years) mostly surrounding bowel/stomach, which I’ve seen a doctor about (who wasn’t worried) but I’ve been referred for further testing. Lately I’ve been trying to find ways to cope with my anxiety and I’ve been thinking back to times when I’ve actually been ill. And it’s made me realise that when I’m actually ill, I usually have very little anxiety about it. I’m lucky that I’ve never had a serious illness, however I do have the BRCA 2 gene mutation and 2 1/2 years ago I had a preventive mastectomy and reconstruction, using fat/tissue from my stomach. It was a massive operation that took nearly 12 hours and 5 days in ICU. But the funny thing was, looking back at it I never over thought and worried too much about the (minor) compilations I had. For example after the operation my kidneys wouldn’t ‘wake up’ for a day and half. I had to get a ECG because oxygen levels were so low they thought there might be something wrong with heart and I was so anaemic I needed a blood transfusion and fainted every time I stood up.
But I always had complete faith in my doctors and what they were telling me. And they were right, I got over all the issues and I’ve had no lasting problems.
So why can’t I believe my doctor when they say my current fears (which are unlikely at my age) are unfounded.
This was really long, sorry. Just can’t sleep and wanted to let out my frustration!