fretty freda
21-10-07, 22:49
hiya guys i have read some of your stories and i can say although everyone is different and we all have seperate problems i sympathise with you all because i have experienced panic attacks and depression on and off for the last 9 years.
at the moment i seem to have hit an all time low in my life ! the past 3 months have been the hardest ever.
I have low days were i struggle to talk with my family and boyfriend in normal conversations through lack of concentration somedays i manage to get out of bed and do a few jobs round the house with great effort and maby during the low days i can go to the shops as long (as i know i wont see anyone i know )these days are bad but the lower days are worse.........
on the even lower days i feel sick when i wake up i cant get out of bed and face the day i just sleep and sleep for as long as i can untill someone encourges me to get out of bed and i often feel dispondent guilty incapable stuck in a black hole i feel i will never get out of !
i constantly worry about EVERYTHING
but believe it or not before i hit rock bottom i was quite confident , happy and cheeky lass nothing scared me i was always outspoken and i was a little madam i was always the one to answer the boss back and moan to him if someone wasent happy about something or i felt unfairly treated or wanted a pay rise ! i worked full time up untill five weeks ago when i felt enough was enough and i couldnt stand another day of facing the world and putting a brave face on ....
SINCE BEING OFF WORK i feel like time has stood still i feel like my life is passing me bye , i feel angry at myself that i am not doing my job and angry that someone else is doing it for me i dont want them to take it but i cant do it i cant face the world the pressure and the stress , i constantly worry about returning to work (EVEN THE THOUGHT FILLS ME WITH FEAR) and IF I WILL EVER FEEL READY ?! I WOULD LIKE TO HEAR ABOUT PEOPLE WHO HAVE EXPERIENCED THIS AND RECOVERED BECAUSE I FEEL IT WILL NEVER END !
I AM RECIEVING CBT AND ON ANTIDEPRESSANTS BUT WOULD LIKE TO HEAR ADVICE FROM YOU GUYS WHO KNOW BEST COZ YOU HAVE FIRST HAND EXPERIENCE THANKS ALOT HOPE TO HEAR YOUR REPLYS SOON XXXX
at the moment i seem to have hit an all time low in my life ! the past 3 months have been the hardest ever.
I have low days were i struggle to talk with my family and boyfriend in normal conversations through lack of concentration somedays i manage to get out of bed and do a few jobs round the house with great effort and maby during the low days i can go to the shops as long (as i know i wont see anyone i know )these days are bad but the lower days are worse.........
on the even lower days i feel sick when i wake up i cant get out of bed and face the day i just sleep and sleep for as long as i can untill someone encourges me to get out of bed and i often feel dispondent guilty incapable stuck in a black hole i feel i will never get out of !
i constantly worry about EVERYTHING
but believe it or not before i hit rock bottom i was quite confident , happy and cheeky lass nothing scared me i was always outspoken and i was a little madam i was always the one to answer the boss back and moan to him if someone wasent happy about something or i felt unfairly treated or wanted a pay rise ! i worked full time up untill five weeks ago when i felt enough was enough and i couldnt stand another day of facing the world and putting a brave face on ....
SINCE BEING OFF WORK i feel like time has stood still i feel like my life is passing me bye , i feel angry at myself that i am not doing my job and angry that someone else is doing it for me i dont want them to take it but i cant do it i cant face the world the pressure and the stress , i constantly worry about returning to work (EVEN THE THOUGHT FILLS ME WITH FEAR) and IF I WILL EVER FEEL READY ?! I WOULD LIKE TO HEAR ABOUT PEOPLE WHO HAVE EXPERIENCED THIS AND RECOVERED BECAUSE I FEEL IT WILL NEVER END !
I AM RECIEVING CBT AND ON ANTIDEPRESSANTS BUT WOULD LIKE TO HEAR ADVICE FROM YOU GUYS WHO KNOW BEST COZ YOU HAVE FIRST HAND EXPERIENCE THANKS ALOT HOPE TO HEAR YOUR REPLYS SOON XXXX