dobbin1973
02-02-05, 10:59
Hi,
Dobbin here 31 m from Clapham London.
New to the site .... brief history as i will send my full story in via email.
Had a huge panic (i know its a panic attack now) on the tube in October last year ... scared the hell out of me ... I had to get off the tube at Victoria and walk to Clapham where I live. Was feeling very threatened on the walk home thinking every body was out to get me ... and that I was dying ... my hearing was muffled and i had major dizziness 8(.
Anyway ... attacks got progressively worse and reallt started to affect my life ... I went to the doctors of whom advised panic attacks and high blood pressure caused by stress and signed me off work for two weeks and prescribe me beta blockers. Also had blood tests done that were clear. My boss seemed to be totally understanding until I phoned up to say I would be back in Monday (didnt feel ready to go back but was worried about my job re bills to pay etc) to which he told me "We have exercised our right to terminate your employment as you are on a probationary period!" ... (i started a new job last september).
So cut a long story short ... I’m now looking for a new job and try to deal with these attacks. I don’t want to get into a situation where I’m scared to leave the house so I go out every day to deal with it ... Even if it’s to get some milk down the shops. I set myself goals every day. Went on the tube over the weekend only for two stops. Felt ok and like I had really achieved something. My girlfriend has been a tower of strength but I’m worried that it will all become too much. We had to cancel out Xmas holiday to France as I had a huge panic attack boxing day that lasted for 2.5 days. Times have been hard and then to lose my job as well (looking into taking them to court according to ACAS I have grounds to take them to a tribunal) but I think maybe the job was part of the cause so taking it as a blessing in disguise. Signed on with some agencies Monday... Was very nervous but once I started talking about myself and work history etc I forgot all about "Sh*T what if I have a panic attack!". I have found that talking about a subject you know lots about ie. yourself keeps you from thinking and even makes you for get about your panic attacks !!.. I have also written a song (and put music to it) I find helps as I sing it in my head if I start to feel funny. Happened the other day when I was driving to Croydon. so I started singing the song I had written in my head and before I knew it I was in Croydon and the wave of nasty’ ness had passed. The song was my way of taking the negative feeling of panic attacks and turning it into a positive thing I enjoy. Writting songs and playing the guitar ! … Just a thought … anybody else tried something similar???? Get in touch if you want the lyrics to the song. Was going to post lyrics on the website but not confident enough … The old confidence been knocked for six of late !!! as you all probably understand ! But if anybody interested pls get in touch ... dobbin1973@hotmail.com
Anyway after saying I would keep this short I have gone on a bit !! ha ha
This website it a great place and although I would not wish what I am going through on anyone its nice to know there are people out there who can understand and have similar problems.
Also, how do you post a pic any one ????
Cheers
Dobbin (simon)
Dobbin here 31 m from Clapham London.
New to the site .... brief history as i will send my full story in via email.
Had a huge panic (i know its a panic attack now) on the tube in October last year ... scared the hell out of me ... I had to get off the tube at Victoria and walk to Clapham where I live. Was feeling very threatened on the walk home thinking every body was out to get me ... and that I was dying ... my hearing was muffled and i had major dizziness 8(.
Anyway ... attacks got progressively worse and reallt started to affect my life ... I went to the doctors of whom advised panic attacks and high blood pressure caused by stress and signed me off work for two weeks and prescribe me beta blockers. Also had blood tests done that were clear. My boss seemed to be totally understanding until I phoned up to say I would be back in Monday (didnt feel ready to go back but was worried about my job re bills to pay etc) to which he told me "We have exercised our right to terminate your employment as you are on a probationary period!" ... (i started a new job last september).
So cut a long story short ... I’m now looking for a new job and try to deal with these attacks. I don’t want to get into a situation where I’m scared to leave the house so I go out every day to deal with it ... Even if it’s to get some milk down the shops. I set myself goals every day. Went on the tube over the weekend only for two stops. Felt ok and like I had really achieved something. My girlfriend has been a tower of strength but I’m worried that it will all become too much. We had to cancel out Xmas holiday to France as I had a huge panic attack boxing day that lasted for 2.5 days. Times have been hard and then to lose my job as well (looking into taking them to court according to ACAS I have grounds to take them to a tribunal) but I think maybe the job was part of the cause so taking it as a blessing in disguise. Signed on with some agencies Monday... Was very nervous but once I started talking about myself and work history etc I forgot all about "Sh*T what if I have a panic attack!". I have found that talking about a subject you know lots about ie. yourself keeps you from thinking and even makes you for get about your panic attacks !!.. I have also written a song (and put music to it) I find helps as I sing it in my head if I start to feel funny. Happened the other day when I was driving to Croydon. so I started singing the song I had written in my head and before I knew it I was in Croydon and the wave of nasty’ ness had passed. The song was my way of taking the negative feeling of panic attacks and turning it into a positive thing I enjoy. Writting songs and playing the guitar ! … Just a thought … anybody else tried something similar???? Get in touch if you want the lyrics to the song. Was going to post lyrics on the website but not confident enough … The old confidence been knocked for six of late !!! as you all probably understand ! But if anybody interested pls get in touch ... dobbin1973@hotmail.com
Anyway after saying I would keep this short I have gone on a bit !! ha ha
This website it a great place and although I would not wish what I am going through on anyone its nice to know there are people out there who can understand and have similar problems.
Also, how do you post a pic any one ????
Cheers
Dobbin (simon)