Heather1234
01-07-20, 23:20
Ok so short version. I'm 39 and quit smoking in Oct 2018. I had a stressful event 8 mos after & started back. :( the last month I've been trying REALLY hard to quit again and my HA has been crazy.
First I noticed white patches in my mouth (on each side of where my mouth opens) they seemed to improve...(?)
So I promptly started worrying a female issue. Went to the dr...everything fine
Except had high bp while I was there which started a new rabbit trail.
I've been taking my bp at home and it's mostly good.
Now I'm noticing the white patches again. In my mind, theyve come back. Probably been there. Idk.
I cant get into the dentist for a while, and now I'm spirally over this. Ugh.
I know rationally that smoking increases my risk for oral cancer, but I also know cancer doesnt usually improve then come back. Or maybe it does. Idk.
From my research (I know, I shouldnt :/), I either have leukoplakia or oral cancer, or leukoplakia that will turn into oral cancer. Or possibly something else of course.
This anxiety makes it hard to quit even though I know its causing it. I'm still on track today though. No smoking. Just had to vent and obviously looking for sound logic, as I have lost mine.
First I noticed white patches in my mouth (on each side of where my mouth opens) they seemed to improve...(?)
So I promptly started worrying a female issue. Went to the dr...everything fine
Except had high bp while I was there which started a new rabbit trail.
I've been taking my bp at home and it's mostly good.
Now I'm noticing the white patches again. In my mind, theyve come back. Probably been there. Idk.
I cant get into the dentist for a while, and now I'm spirally over this. Ugh.
I know rationally that smoking increases my risk for oral cancer, but I also know cancer doesnt usually improve then come back. Or maybe it does. Idk.
From my research (I know, I shouldnt :/), I either have leukoplakia or oral cancer, or leukoplakia that will turn into oral cancer. Or possibly something else of course.
This anxiety makes it hard to quit even though I know its causing it. I'm still on track today though. No smoking. Just had to vent and obviously looking for sound logic, as I have lost mine.