AnxiousAaron
18-07-20, 01:51
So I had severe health anxiety back in 2016- early 2017 due to a variety of ailments such as rabies to cancer to lymph nodes. Midway through 2017 I was able to manage it and eventually my anxiety went away or I guess dormant. That was u til recently. Now I over think everything.
So today I made myself hotdogs. I bought a condiments 4 pack from Costco awhile back and took out the relish from the pantry. It was new so I went to open the seal. When I took the plastic cap off the seal came off super easily. It was there so I didn’t think nothing of it. So after dinner I am now thinking was the seal already opened and I ate contaminated relish or Maybe it was just weak glue with that seal or maybe the Texas heat. I don’t know but this is the kind of overthinking so am dealing with lately. I dwell on one thing for the whole day and am super paranoid. Then the next day I’m fine until something else happens then boom paranoid about that. Even on the good days I feel my brain actively seeking for something to worry about.
To make matters worse, I can’t talk to my wife about it. She just had a collapsed lung a little while ago and her dad who lives out of country just had a stroke and she can’t go see him. So I would feel like a pos bothering her with this nonsense when she’s dealing with very real health issues.
So today I made myself hotdogs. I bought a condiments 4 pack from Costco awhile back and took out the relish from the pantry. It was new so I went to open the seal. When I took the plastic cap off the seal came off super easily. It was there so I didn’t think nothing of it. So after dinner I am now thinking was the seal already opened and I ate contaminated relish or Maybe it was just weak glue with that seal or maybe the Texas heat. I don’t know but this is the kind of overthinking so am dealing with lately. I dwell on one thing for the whole day and am super paranoid. Then the next day I’m fine until something else happens then boom paranoid about that. Even on the good days I feel my brain actively seeking for something to worry about.
To make matters worse, I can’t talk to my wife about it. She just had a collapsed lung a little while ago and her dad who lives out of country just had a stroke and she can’t go see him. So I would feel like a pos bothering her with this nonsense when she’s dealing with very real health issues.