Lockey1995
19-07-20, 02:50
Hey,
So i've had this issue before and never really been able to get to the bottom of it but this last few days It's completely taken me out I'm mentally exhausted and have felt physically sick a few times. So first of all I don't really want to tag my self as having OCD even though i feel as it shares the same tendencies but it's not really constant it's just every now and then.
Basically some times when i watch something a tv show,movie I'm invested in and sometimes even something on a website,i have this overwhelmingly huge urge to go back and re read, re watch it to know exactly what happened i just have the urge to know this is a big problem because i end up going back allot sometimes and can end wasting days on end at times. It could be something as small as a certain tv scene or some unimportant dialogue but I really have the urge to know what was said to feel relaxed but of course it's only temporary and never lasts but if i ignore it my anxiety just sky rockets and doesn't calm down i keep trying to piece it together in my head what happened and no distraction really seems to take it away at it's worst.
Logically i say to my self i can accept uncertainty and not knowing but emotionally i just can't, I am guessing it's impossible to know everything that was said in that scene etc without physically watching it but i can't seem to snap out of it and just say it doesn't matter i need to piece it together 1 to 1.
Has anyone had anything similar to this, or am i on my own here?
So i've had this issue before and never really been able to get to the bottom of it but this last few days It's completely taken me out I'm mentally exhausted and have felt physically sick a few times. So first of all I don't really want to tag my self as having OCD even though i feel as it shares the same tendencies but it's not really constant it's just every now and then.
Basically some times when i watch something a tv show,movie I'm invested in and sometimes even something on a website,i have this overwhelmingly huge urge to go back and re read, re watch it to know exactly what happened i just have the urge to know this is a big problem because i end up going back allot sometimes and can end wasting days on end at times. It could be something as small as a certain tv scene or some unimportant dialogue but I really have the urge to know what was said to feel relaxed but of course it's only temporary and never lasts but if i ignore it my anxiety just sky rockets and doesn't calm down i keep trying to piece it together in my head what happened and no distraction really seems to take it away at it's worst.
Logically i say to my self i can accept uncertainty and not knowing but emotionally i just can't, I am guessing it's impossible to know everything that was said in that scene etc without physically watching it but i can't seem to snap out of it and just say it doesn't matter i need to piece it together 1 to 1.
Has anyone had anything similar to this, or am i on my own here?