nikk_dolittle
24-10-07, 15:27
Hi all,
I dont like asking for much but I feel really lost and as if I need to be coping alone as no-one will talk to me, I feel I have nothing anymore. Im in a black hole and no-one really wants me anymore. I feel Im unwanted and that theres no need to bother anymore.
No-one really understands me now and Its becoming sooo hard to do things when I do talk.
I know i have been to counselling, but Im really struggleing with it, I try and try and just dont feel its best for me.
When I do talk I feel I shouldnt as I might upset them so I feel I cant have people around me when I feel that way.
I do nothing but cry as I feel i have no choice but to cope alone now with everything. I try my hardest to do things then I fail and I cant go back and change things.
I try to change the way I feel about myself then the next time it gets worse and I cant change it again.... I hate myself bigtime, all I ever feel about is that Im a usless cow or shouldnt be wasting peoples time anymore no matter what,
I cant do this anymore.... No-one really wants me here and there now.:lac:
please can I have some hugs?
Also I would like to say thanks to Nic and Trac who has had me constantly moaning to them when I havent been able to post and when I have been bad. :hugs: Sorry. :flowers:
Thanks
Nikk xxxxxxxx:shrug:
I dont like asking for much but I feel really lost and as if I need to be coping alone as no-one will talk to me, I feel I have nothing anymore. Im in a black hole and no-one really wants me anymore. I feel Im unwanted and that theres no need to bother anymore.
No-one really understands me now and Its becoming sooo hard to do things when I do talk.
I know i have been to counselling, but Im really struggleing with it, I try and try and just dont feel its best for me.
When I do talk I feel I shouldnt as I might upset them so I feel I cant have people around me when I feel that way.
I do nothing but cry as I feel i have no choice but to cope alone now with everything. I try my hardest to do things then I fail and I cant go back and change things.
I try to change the way I feel about myself then the next time it gets worse and I cant change it again.... I hate myself bigtime, all I ever feel about is that Im a usless cow or shouldnt be wasting peoples time anymore no matter what,
I cant do this anymore.... No-one really wants me here and there now.:lac:
please can I have some hugs?
Also I would like to say thanks to Nic and Trac who has had me constantly moaning to them when I havent been able to post and when I have been bad. :hugs: Sorry. :flowers:
Thanks
Nikk xxxxxxxx:shrug: