imfineokay
18-08-20, 02:07
Hello, sorry this is such a long post but this has developed into a massive issue for me and I must talk about it somewhere.
3 years ago (2017) I began looking for my first job and I felt like I was on track with my life and had so much to look forward to, I had been universal credit during the first half of that year but stupidly I stopped claiming and figured I’d find a job on my own and so I began putting off getting a job for months as my anxiety began to develop to the point where the thought of getting a job would stress me out to the point of nausea and I got too comfortable not having too much of a social life being indoors a lot of the time. I had applied for jobs here and there throughout 2018 and 2019 but to no avail (although I realise this is perhaps because I didn’t apply enough).
So as 2020 began I promised myself this would finally be the year where I would reset and get my life back on track by getting my first job, in February I even tried to get help through a job seeking agency which would have been a big help, but then you guessed it...Covid-19 happened and everywhere went into lockdown putting a pause on my plan. Months later here I am 22 years old, still haven’t had my first job yet and in my head I’m screaming about how much time I’m losing and how much time I have wasted. I feel like A failure and a disappointment and i’m worried that I’m too far gone. I am going to attempt applying again from September but part of me is worried I’ll lose so much time before I finally manage to land myself a job and I’m very embarrassed that I’ve managed to reach this age and not even got a job yet...have I failed at life already?
3 years ago (2017) I began looking for my first job and I felt like I was on track with my life and had so much to look forward to, I had been universal credit during the first half of that year but stupidly I stopped claiming and figured I’d find a job on my own and so I began putting off getting a job for months as my anxiety began to develop to the point where the thought of getting a job would stress me out to the point of nausea and I got too comfortable not having too much of a social life being indoors a lot of the time. I had applied for jobs here and there throughout 2018 and 2019 but to no avail (although I realise this is perhaps because I didn’t apply enough).
So as 2020 began I promised myself this would finally be the year where I would reset and get my life back on track by getting my first job, in February I even tried to get help through a job seeking agency which would have been a big help, but then you guessed it...Covid-19 happened and everywhere went into lockdown putting a pause on my plan. Months later here I am 22 years old, still haven’t had my first job yet and in my head I’m screaming about how much time I’m losing and how much time I have wasted. I feel like A failure and a disappointment and i’m worried that I’m too far gone. I am going to attempt applying again from September but part of me is worried I’ll lose so much time before I finally manage to land myself a job and I’m very embarrassed that I’ve managed to reach this age and not even got a job yet...have I failed at life already?