derpkhan
09-09-20, 02:18
Hello again! I've posted on here every so often but lately I've been doing far better at managing my anxiety. Unfortunately a new "fascination" has popped up which of course I have made the mistake of googling. There's a lot of typical symptoms you see a lot on here, like vision issues (albeit only in one eye), seeing flashes, slightly blurry vision etc etc. Then I have now noticed 2 of my lymph nodes seem to be stuck firm, one is movable but the other is not. I haven't noticed any growth but it still makes me uneasy. Now I have an obsession with my neck, one side feels larger than the other, my trapezoid muscles on that side are almost rock hard and seem to bulge out more than the other side. Then my neck itself feels hard in spots though not particularly lumpy as well as partially swollen on one side on the back. Naturally this is sending me over the edge, all I can think of is that it is cancer. Every little thing is working me up even more. I am due to see a doctor soon but I still can't help but get insanely anxious. Every little thing is riling up my anxiety. I'm only 26 but I still can't help but get my mind racing, would be really nice for some reassurance or something.