lilysmith123
07-10-20, 20:54
One thing I've discovered through therapy is that my anxiety doesn't fit the traditional 'ahhh I'm going to die of this horrible terminal illness!!' but more, oh god I've got this disease/illness that is deibilitating, not terminal, and I'll live for a long time and have an abysmal quality of life.
My worst fears are being house bound with an illness, no friends, no partner, can't work, life in misery for years! So I fear illnesses that could leave me like this. I feared my frequent urination incase i had interstitial cystitis since i've read so many horrible stories. Or if there's something worrying me about my eyes, I fear I'll go blind and be blind for the rest of my life.
Because when I had previously seen my GP, and I wasn't scared of cancer etc etc, but more 'benign but long lasting and horrid' illnesses, they were reluctant to diagnose me with HA. Working with my therapist, she's told me this is really common too, but I haven't spoken to anyone else who worries this specific way.
Does anyone else worry more about living a long time with no quality of life / suffering than a quick death illness?
My worst fears are being house bound with an illness, no friends, no partner, can't work, life in misery for years! So I fear illnesses that could leave me like this. I feared my frequent urination incase i had interstitial cystitis since i've read so many horrible stories. Or if there's something worrying me about my eyes, I fear I'll go blind and be blind for the rest of my life.
Because when I had previously seen my GP, and I wasn't scared of cancer etc etc, but more 'benign but long lasting and horrid' illnesses, they were reluctant to diagnose me with HA. Working with my therapist, she's told me this is really common too, but I haven't spoken to anyone else who worries this specific way.
Does anyone else worry more about living a long time with no quality of life / suffering than a quick death illness?