angiebaby
28-10-07, 01:00
I have just been speaking to Kazzie in chat - help, thankyou for that kaz, and she has suggested that i do a post to see if anyone could give me some info please.
I am in a difficult situation really.
As some of you may know, i work in a nursing capacity in a gp surgery and i only get two months full pay and two months half pay, then nothing. I have been off work now for 4 months. I have PTSD, have had for three years now and i think i was improving a little then 6 weeks ago my dad died suddenly in my arms. I have been even worse since then, understandable i know, and i have an appt with my gp on monday and i was going to get them to sign me off the sick to go back to work on thursday, when my current sick note runs out. I was dreading this and i know that i will not cope, i will go in and my legs will give way and that will be it. Struggling so much at the moment with dizziness and everything is not real, i am not living, just stumbling around, cloudy and floaty and very, very scared. Now today, we find out my father in law is close to death in a hospital bed, struggling to keep going and they have said that it doesn't look good. How much more can i take, i just can't cope with this at all, it is not fair!
If i don't go back to work, i get no money and the mortgage doesn't get paid, my wages pay the whole mortgage each month, just enough to do it. Without my wages, we can't pay it and obviously this is not good.
My hubby doesn't work as he has an arm injury that happened whilst at work 9 years ago so he gets incapacity, lowest dla and industrial injuries. I do get working families tax credit, a little bit anyway. And that's it really.
Does anyone know what i can do, even my mum says that i won't cope with going back and the way i am i dont even feel like i am here, sitting in my living room typing this, let alone going back to work, which i don't really remember anyway. Can anyone help, other than the fact that i need a new brain that is.x
I am in a difficult situation really.
As some of you may know, i work in a nursing capacity in a gp surgery and i only get two months full pay and two months half pay, then nothing. I have been off work now for 4 months. I have PTSD, have had for three years now and i think i was improving a little then 6 weeks ago my dad died suddenly in my arms. I have been even worse since then, understandable i know, and i have an appt with my gp on monday and i was going to get them to sign me off the sick to go back to work on thursday, when my current sick note runs out. I was dreading this and i know that i will not cope, i will go in and my legs will give way and that will be it. Struggling so much at the moment with dizziness and everything is not real, i am not living, just stumbling around, cloudy and floaty and very, very scared. Now today, we find out my father in law is close to death in a hospital bed, struggling to keep going and they have said that it doesn't look good. How much more can i take, i just can't cope with this at all, it is not fair!
If i don't go back to work, i get no money and the mortgage doesn't get paid, my wages pay the whole mortgage each month, just enough to do it. Without my wages, we can't pay it and obviously this is not good.
My hubby doesn't work as he has an arm injury that happened whilst at work 9 years ago so he gets incapacity, lowest dla and industrial injuries. I do get working families tax credit, a little bit anyway. And that's it really.
Does anyone know what i can do, even my mum says that i won't cope with going back and the way i am i dont even feel like i am here, sitting in my living room typing this, let alone going back to work, which i don't really remember anyway. Can anyone help, other than the fact that i need a new brain that is.x