lilysmith123
21-10-20, 21:38
I'm back aGAIN with my horrific bladder fears.
In July, I started getting urinary symptoms. I couldn't sleep one night and ended up feeling like I constantly needed the bathroom. I ended up panicking over this sensation, thinking it would never go away. I ended up in hospital for stomach pain, and my urine symptoms disappeared! Apart from after an ultrasound where they repeatedly pressed on my very full bladder and I struggled to empty it afterwards, I felt much better.
I struggled leaving the hospital, worried my symptoms would return when I was alone again. But I've been doing good except from one or two funny days. Therapy is helping too!
The other night, I started panicking thinking I was going to end up with a UTI after being with my partner. (which I've never had but constantly googling urine symptoms you know). Guess what? I had the symptoms back. The following day, I got my period (even though I have the IUD and haven't bled in 2 years)
I used to be able to go like 5 hours without feeling the urge for the bathroom. Now it feels like im back to square one again, I need to go like 1-2 hours after if even that long. Sometimes like an hour later, I feel the urge. It doesn't help right now I'm constipated thanks to codeine, so anytime I feel pressure around my bottom, I feel the urge to pee, so trying to convice myself it's my very full bowel pressing on my bladder!
I've convinced myself that I have interstitial cystitis, that I'm not completely emptying my bladder, that I am gonna end up having to get a catheter or something and this feeling won't ever go away and my life will be over.
Every night since I got home from hospital, I have to take a sleeping aid otherwise I am scared I won't be able to sleep since my anxiety is st its worst at night. I dont know what to do. I don't even know if I really need the bathroom so I'm holding for a bit longer to make sure. It's so confusing as I don't even know what my body really needs anymore
I have a urologist appointment in December and I was doing good until I got the appointment date through and started focusing on things again, then I spent like an hour googling UTIs and will my symptoms come back of I do xyz? And they did.
And now I am panicking and shaking over this. This has been the one HA symptom I havent been able to shake and I really just need a friend right now. My friends don't understand and everyone thinks I'm stupid for worrying like this, so I just need a friendly ear from you guys.
I've been working SO hard on therapy, doing my CBT activities but this is the one symptom I cannot shake and the one fear I always circle back to.
How can I possibly calm down? I feel like none of my usual things are working :weep::weep::weep:
In July, I started getting urinary symptoms. I couldn't sleep one night and ended up feeling like I constantly needed the bathroom. I ended up panicking over this sensation, thinking it would never go away. I ended up in hospital for stomach pain, and my urine symptoms disappeared! Apart from after an ultrasound where they repeatedly pressed on my very full bladder and I struggled to empty it afterwards, I felt much better.
I struggled leaving the hospital, worried my symptoms would return when I was alone again. But I've been doing good except from one or two funny days. Therapy is helping too!
The other night, I started panicking thinking I was going to end up with a UTI after being with my partner. (which I've never had but constantly googling urine symptoms you know). Guess what? I had the symptoms back. The following day, I got my period (even though I have the IUD and haven't bled in 2 years)
I used to be able to go like 5 hours without feeling the urge for the bathroom. Now it feels like im back to square one again, I need to go like 1-2 hours after if even that long. Sometimes like an hour later, I feel the urge. It doesn't help right now I'm constipated thanks to codeine, so anytime I feel pressure around my bottom, I feel the urge to pee, so trying to convice myself it's my very full bowel pressing on my bladder!
I've convinced myself that I have interstitial cystitis, that I'm not completely emptying my bladder, that I am gonna end up having to get a catheter or something and this feeling won't ever go away and my life will be over.
Every night since I got home from hospital, I have to take a sleeping aid otherwise I am scared I won't be able to sleep since my anxiety is st its worst at night. I dont know what to do. I don't even know if I really need the bathroom so I'm holding for a bit longer to make sure. It's so confusing as I don't even know what my body really needs anymore
I have a urologist appointment in December and I was doing good until I got the appointment date through and started focusing on things again, then I spent like an hour googling UTIs and will my symptoms come back of I do xyz? And they did.
And now I am panicking and shaking over this. This has been the one HA symptom I havent been able to shake and I really just need a friend right now. My friends don't understand and everyone thinks I'm stupid for worrying like this, so I just need a friendly ear from you guys.
I've been working SO hard on therapy, doing my CBT activities but this is the one symptom I cannot shake and the one fear I always circle back to.
How can I possibly calm down? I feel like none of my usual things are working :weep::weep::weep: