Sarah25
28-10-07, 22:49
Hello every one.
My name is Sarah, I am 25 I have been a painc attack suffer for 3 years. It has got really bad right now and I am sure I have depression caused by my anixety and panic attacks. I am unable now to go on ANy form of public transport, and as I live 20 miles away from my family it can make me feel very isolated as I am unable to just jump on the train to see friends. I am a ACUTE Clostraphobic, I can not go in to public toilets in any small rooms, as soon as I am unable to get out if I want to the PANIC SETS IN.
I am frightened to take tablets as I am un sure what they r going to do to me, I have had a perscription for citalopram for about 8 months, but I am to frightened to take it.
I have now became so with drawen I dont really see any one during the week, and on the weekend when I do see people I drink so much alchol I just sit crying crying or get very angry with my self.
I feel the whole world is against me and take things very personal. I read in to every thing, If some ones says for example are you ok, I think straight away why would they think I am not ok, I have 2 small babies age 5 and 2 and my mood swings during the day sees us spending lots of time with them sitting watching cartoons and me sitting on the computer. this makes me feel even more guilty. I have started sleeping lots. I also see the danger in EVERYTHING, and if I have to much time to think about any thing I will not be able to do it.
Example, I went to Chessington with my family and spent the whole day standing out side all the rides holding all the coats, I did not even go in the 4d cinema, I was so frightened. I feel like a failure and not sure what to do. Please Please dont tell me to tackle my problems head on as just the thought alone makes me start getting stomach cramps.
Thanks for reading about me.
Im not sure if I am alone or loosing control of my mind but I am very frightened.
My name is Sarah, I am 25 I have been a painc attack suffer for 3 years. It has got really bad right now and I am sure I have depression caused by my anixety and panic attacks. I am unable now to go on ANy form of public transport, and as I live 20 miles away from my family it can make me feel very isolated as I am unable to just jump on the train to see friends. I am a ACUTE Clostraphobic, I can not go in to public toilets in any small rooms, as soon as I am unable to get out if I want to the PANIC SETS IN.
I am frightened to take tablets as I am un sure what they r going to do to me, I have had a perscription for citalopram for about 8 months, but I am to frightened to take it.
I have now became so with drawen I dont really see any one during the week, and on the weekend when I do see people I drink so much alchol I just sit crying crying or get very angry with my self.
I feel the whole world is against me and take things very personal. I read in to every thing, If some ones says for example are you ok, I think straight away why would they think I am not ok, I have 2 small babies age 5 and 2 and my mood swings during the day sees us spending lots of time with them sitting watching cartoons and me sitting on the computer. this makes me feel even more guilty. I have started sleeping lots. I also see the danger in EVERYTHING, and if I have to much time to think about any thing I will not be able to do it.
Example, I went to Chessington with my family and spent the whole day standing out side all the rides holding all the coats, I did not even go in the 4d cinema, I was so frightened. I feel like a failure and not sure what to do. Please Please dont tell me to tackle my problems head on as just the thought alone makes me start getting stomach cramps.
Thanks for reading about me.
Im not sure if I am alone or loosing control of my mind but I am very frightened.