carriewriting
16-11-20, 12:11
So I'm at the point in my HA journey where I'm surprising even myself at what I can come up with to scare myself.
Yesterday I was at my parents house and decided to take some of my mum's jewellery. She died 3 years ago from a terrible lung disease. She had a huge collection of costume jewellery, some of it up to 30 years old. There's some classic 80's pieces there. Anyway, I grabbed some earrings and brought them home. I've had my ears pierced for 40 years.
This morning I was running late for work and grabbed a pair silver hoops off the dresser on my way out the door. A few hours later I suddenly realised I hadn't cleaned them before I put them in.
I don't know how old these earrings are. At least 20 years I suspect and it would have to be 5 years, probably 10 or more, since mum wore them.
A person without HA probably wouldn't give this a second thought or perhaps they'd keep an eye out for infection just in case. But no, I immediately get a surge of panic that I will get the lung disease she had from her earrings. Then I gave myself a big reality check, did my CBT exercises and moved on.
I have no idea how or why I made this obscure connection, but at this point, nothing surprises me. I guess it's one more thing to talk to my therapist about :wacko: What's the weirdest thing you've worried about?
Yesterday I was at my parents house and decided to take some of my mum's jewellery. She died 3 years ago from a terrible lung disease. She had a huge collection of costume jewellery, some of it up to 30 years old. There's some classic 80's pieces there. Anyway, I grabbed some earrings and brought them home. I've had my ears pierced for 40 years.
This morning I was running late for work and grabbed a pair silver hoops off the dresser on my way out the door. A few hours later I suddenly realised I hadn't cleaned them before I put them in.
I don't know how old these earrings are. At least 20 years I suspect and it would have to be 5 years, probably 10 or more, since mum wore them.
A person without HA probably wouldn't give this a second thought or perhaps they'd keep an eye out for infection just in case. But no, I immediately get a surge of panic that I will get the lung disease she had from her earrings. Then I gave myself a big reality check, did my CBT exercises and moved on.
I have no idea how or why I made this obscure connection, but at this point, nothing surprises me. I guess it's one more thing to talk to my therapist about :wacko: What's the weirdest thing you've worried about?