mattrb81
16-11-20, 13:07
Hi, everyone.
I'm new here.
I have had OCD ever since I was a small child.
As an adult it often manifests itself as a morbid dread that I am getting dementia.
I am thirty-nine-years-old. I turn forty in January.
Every time I have trouble remembering anything I fear that it is the first signs of dementia. Like, for example, I went to a friend's birthday barbeque on the weekend. His wife is someone I have known for over twenty years. But when I was walking around looking for the barbeque area they were at (I wasn't sure which one they were going to be at), I ended up walking past the barbeque area they were at. The woman I said I have known for over twenty years was sitting there with sunglasses on and I didn't realise it was her. So even though I saw her, I ended up walking straight past her not realising it was her. It was only when I walked back in the other direction and her husband spotted me and I sat down that I realised it was her. Granted, this isn't a case of not remembering something. Rather, it was a case of not recognising a close friend at first. At the barbeque I ended up clawing at my wrists because I was scared I was in the first signs of dementia.
Also, I listen to podcasts at work to keep me entertained. Last week I got to work and found that I had forgotten to bring my ear buds with me. But when I got home after work I couldn't find them. I asked my girlfriend if I had left them at her place earlier in the week. She subsequently looked and said she found a black pair of ear buds but wasn't sure if they are mine or hers. The fact that I couldn't find my ear buds also made me start to worry that I am developing dementia.
This dementia fear has manifested in me since I was in my twenties.
I'm new here.
I have had OCD ever since I was a small child.
As an adult it often manifests itself as a morbid dread that I am getting dementia.
I am thirty-nine-years-old. I turn forty in January.
Every time I have trouble remembering anything I fear that it is the first signs of dementia. Like, for example, I went to a friend's birthday barbeque on the weekend. His wife is someone I have known for over twenty years. But when I was walking around looking for the barbeque area they were at (I wasn't sure which one they were going to be at), I ended up walking past the barbeque area they were at. The woman I said I have known for over twenty years was sitting there with sunglasses on and I didn't realise it was her. So even though I saw her, I ended up walking straight past her not realising it was her. It was only when I walked back in the other direction and her husband spotted me and I sat down that I realised it was her. Granted, this isn't a case of not remembering something. Rather, it was a case of not recognising a close friend at first. At the barbeque I ended up clawing at my wrists because I was scared I was in the first signs of dementia.
Also, I listen to podcasts at work to keep me entertained. Last week I got to work and found that I had forgotten to bring my ear buds with me. But when I got home after work I couldn't find them. I asked my girlfriend if I had left them at her place earlier in the week. She subsequently looked and said she found a black pair of ear buds but wasn't sure if they are mine or hers. The fact that I couldn't find my ear buds also made me start to worry that I am developing dementia.
This dementia fear has manifested in me since I was in my twenties.