Lilith1980
31-10-07, 09:10
Hi all,
I'm sorry to post more about my problems - I don't feel like I offer much to other people in the forum at the moment but I do try and offer my opinion when I can....
I am so tired, my anxiety has taken hold really hard lately. I feel so down and I'm always worrying that my relationship with my fiance is on the rocks. I basically worry about most things and I just want my head to shut off.
We've had a few weeks where my fiance has come home from work at a normal time and we've had evenings on our own together which has been great. Before that he was busy with work for a few months and we didn't have much quality time together as his friend was staying over a lot as well. So you would have thought that us having a few weeks of time onour own would have been enough.....but my fiance is working late a few nights this week and when he told me the nights he'd be late I started crying.
I hate being indoors on my own, which is weird because I used to be someone who enjoyed my own company. But if my fiance works late or if he goes out without me (which isnt often at all) then I get filled with panic and I feel abandoned. When he is out I spend most of my time crying and thinking the relationship is hitting rock bottom and just feeling alone.
My fiance said last night that he wishes I would stop whinging, he said he didnt mean to sound nasty but we've had lots of time together recently and it always seems to be me saying "I just want some time together" even if we have had time. He said he had been dreading telling me he'd be working late because he knew how I would react.
I said sorry and that I wasn't meaning to whinge and that I'm sorry he feels like he can't talk to me. I said I wouldnt whinge anymore and at that point I just started to shut off because now I feel like I can't talk to him, I feel so low about myself, I feel empty. I said I don't feel like I can talk to him, he says I can, but he's said before that he finds it hard going and that sometimes when he comes home from work he doesn't want to hear what I have been worrying about as soon as he steps through the door.
I know its frustrating for him I know the anxiety gets on his nerves, but who else can I talk to? I dont want to speak to friends or family because I dont want to worry them.
I am waiting to see a counsellor at the moment so I dont know what to do in the meantime. If I don't talk to someone about these things I feel like I'm just going to slip down more and just clam up altogether.
I'm sorry to post more about my problems - I don't feel like I offer much to other people in the forum at the moment but I do try and offer my opinion when I can....
I am so tired, my anxiety has taken hold really hard lately. I feel so down and I'm always worrying that my relationship with my fiance is on the rocks. I basically worry about most things and I just want my head to shut off.
We've had a few weeks where my fiance has come home from work at a normal time and we've had evenings on our own together which has been great. Before that he was busy with work for a few months and we didn't have much quality time together as his friend was staying over a lot as well. So you would have thought that us having a few weeks of time onour own would have been enough.....but my fiance is working late a few nights this week and when he told me the nights he'd be late I started crying.
I hate being indoors on my own, which is weird because I used to be someone who enjoyed my own company. But if my fiance works late or if he goes out without me (which isnt often at all) then I get filled with panic and I feel abandoned. When he is out I spend most of my time crying and thinking the relationship is hitting rock bottom and just feeling alone.
My fiance said last night that he wishes I would stop whinging, he said he didnt mean to sound nasty but we've had lots of time together recently and it always seems to be me saying "I just want some time together" even if we have had time. He said he had been dreading telling me he'd be working late because he knew how I would react.
I said sorry and that I wasn't meaning to whinge and that I'm sorry he feels like he can't talk to me. I said I wouldnt whinge anymore and at that point I just started to shut off because now I feel like I can't talk to him, I feel so low about myself, I feel empty. I said I don't feel like I can talk to him, he says I can, but he's said before that he finds it hard going and that sometimes when he comes home from work he doesn't want to hear what I have been worrying about as soon as he steps through the door.
I know its frustrating for him I know the anxiety gets on his nerves, but who else can I talk to? I dont want to speak to friends or family because I dont want to worry them.
I am waiting to see a counsellor at the moment so I dont know what to do in the meantime. If I don't talk to someone about these things I feel like I'm just going to slip down more and just clam up altogether.