Worrywart84
22-12-20, 04:22
Having a rough night yet again.
Some days I feel “rational” and I’m even able to chime in on threads here and try to help other people in a panic and now I find myself in another panic of my own.
For maybe a month I have had random days of having a scratchy raw throat and occasional cough. It comes goes and usually only lasts a day or so. I can feel drainage so I chalked it up to post nasal drip.
However, today I also felt a bit flushed so I’ve been taking my temp and it’s ranged from 98.5 to 99.4 orally. On the forehead thermometer it even got up to 99.7. This freaks me out because I am usually in the low 97s. I had another day a couple weeks ago of similar elevated temperatures that lasted for a day and then went away.
Now before you think Covid, I haven’t left the house in over two weeks nor has anyone in my household. So it would be highly unlikely unless I got it from like, the mail.
Anyway, if you read one of my most recent threads of panic, it is about enlarged lymph nodes on my neck that although I’ve had them checked out via ultrasound, still bother me and haven’t gone down.
So now I am freaking out that those really are a sign of a bigger picture that is now unraveling in the form of occasional sore throats/coughs and now the scariest feature, low grade fevers. I didn’t even put it all together until I read some threads here of other people fearing lymphoma with similar symptoms.
I am in one of those bad places in my head where I am sure this will be my last Christmas and I won’t get to see my kids grow up. It feels gut wrenching just to type that but that’s how I’m feeling right now.
I don’t know if I should call my doctor and go in again because of the appearance of new symptoms or whether I try to rationalize this away and do nothing. I am really scared and also really sad that my body seems to enjoy plaguing me with my worst fears. I have tried for several months to “let go” of the lymph node worry and now my body is like, “Here’s a terrifying mystery fever for you to contemplate.”
Anyway, yeah. Thanks for reading.
Some days I feel “rational” and I’m even able to chime in on threads here and try to help other people in a panic and now I find myself in another panic of my own.
For maybe a month I have had random days of having a scratchy raw throat and occasional cough. It comes goes and usually only lasts a day or so. I can feel drainage so I chalked it up to post nasal drip.
However, today I also felt a bit flushed so I’ve been taking my temp and it’s ranged from 98.5 to 99.4 orally. On the forehead thermometer it even got up to 99.7. This freaks me out because I am usually in the low 97s. I had another day a couple weeks ago of similar elevated temperatures that lasted for a day and then went away.
Now before you think Covid, I haven’t left the house in over two weeks nor has anyone in my household. So it would be highly unlikely unless I got it from like, the mail.
Anyway, if you read one of my most recent threads of panic, it is about enlarged lymph nodes on my neck that although I’ve had them checked out via ultrasound, still bother me and haven’t gone down.
So now I am freaking out that those really are a sign of a bigger picture that is now unraveling in the form of occasional sore throats/coughs and now the scariest feature, low grade fevers. I didn’t even put it all together until I read some threads here of other people fearing lymphoma with similar symptoms.
I am in one of those bad places in my head where I am sure this will be my last Christmas and I won’t get to see my kids grow up. It feels gut wrenching just to type that but that’s how I’m feeling right now.
I don’t know if I should call my doctor and go in again because of the appearance of new symptoms or whether I try to rationalize this away and do nothing. I am really scared and also really sad that my body seems to enjoy plaguing me with my worst fears. I have tried for several months to “let go” of the lymph node worry and now my body is like, “Here’s a terrifying mystery fever for you to contemplate.”
Anyway, yeah. Thanks for reading.