Justanutter
29-12-20, 12:57
After the most horrid stressful 12 months, apart from the virus situation, I suppose unsurprisingly, my stomach is protesting. I nursed my lovely Mum for the first 3 months of the year, she has COPD and needed up in hospital 3 times which eventually led to her having a breakdown. She went for respite in a wonderful Nursing Home for two weeks but is still there, mainly due to COVID but also because she won’t be a burden to me bless her, as I’m an only child. It’s been so traumatic because of the restricted visits, no visits, then back to twice weekly in a pod. It’s broken me. I cry all the way home every time I leave even though she tells me she’s happy and I mustn’t get upset, but she still is very anxious and missing her friends and family dreadfully. I’ve recently emptied her house, sorted all sorts of official stuff out and it never ends. I’ve nothing left in the tank....I’m a wreck. Meltdowns constantly, cry most days, chronic fatigue feelings and depressed. Now my stomach is in full swing....I was awake all night with just a weird sensation in the upper part which is really bloated and odd pains here and there. I know I’ve just been grabbing the wrong stuff to eat and have been glugging bottles of energy drinks as I keep getting the old low blood sugar episodes.
To be honest, I don’t know what I’m seeking here, probably just reassurance and a vent, that under the circumstances it’s not surprising my stomach is acting up but I’m fearful of the nasties...I’ve just started Citalopram again but haven’t taken them for a few years now but very slowly only taking 5mg. Hoping it will take the edge off. I also take Losec 20mg every day and have done for years so wondering whether I should double up on those? Don't get much support from husband and son and don’t tell the older two so feel like I’m carrying the world on my shoulders right now. Scared of going to Drs right now, not that they’re seeing you but felt so rough early hours nearly went to A&E but was scared of never coming out and seeing my family again...such a strange world out there at the mo.
Thanks for reading.
To be honest, I don’t know what I’m seeking here, probably just reassurance and a vent, that under the circumstances it’s not surprising my stomach is acting up but I’m fearful of the nasties...I’ve just started Citalopram again but haven’t taken them for a few years now but very slowly only taking 5mg. Hoping it will take the edge off. I also take Losec 20mg every day and have done for years so wondering whether I should double up on those? Don't get much support from husband and son and don’t tell the older two so feel like I’m carrying the world on my shoulders right now. Scared of going to Drs right now, not that they’re seeing you but felt so rough early hours nearly went to A&E but was scared of never coming out and seeing my family again...such a strange world out there at the mo.
Thanks for reading.