xleax
23-01-21, 18:51
Hey again lol,
Well looking at previous threads you can see I've been in a bit of a chappy place this past year again.. but I'm finally helping myself for once.. and then.... a school friend has passed away at 28. Yes 28 years old.. due to covid 19, now she did have underlying so im trying to keep my shit together but I'm just so sad and angry at covid. Numbers are now becoming names. People we know, although its been shit ive surprisingly taken this news well.. like I haven't been any more anxious then I normally am I've tried to think rationally rather irrationally as usual but what I am finding hard is even when I'm finding i feel what I call normal I panic and feel anxious because I'm not used to this. Is this normal? Like regardless you can't win, also realised its my thoughts what send me into the whole anxiety spiral I let the bad thoughts take over and immediately think danger does anyone have any tips on how to kind of get rid of thoughts rather then acting like I've gone bat shit crazy and send myself into a panic? Its crazy how well I've been doing this past week and how I'm actually thinking I can maybe over come this anxiety thing.. hopefully. Health anxiety has always been the worst for me and now im just at a point where I think if I'm gonna die ill just die, can't fight fate an all that ? I've gotta stop being scared that I'm gonna just drop down dead.. today I even managed a long walk with my son and I haven't been able to do that in a while because I've been so bad so I'm super proud today. I guess my questions is basically..
1. How can I try and stop the bad thoughts before they make me panic?
2.Is it ok to feel anxious about feeling normal?
3. Any other tips on how to help myself further?
4.How to calm myself while out regarding "dropping down dead" or something bad happening?
Thanks for everyone's help over the years this sites always always helped me.
Well looking at previous threads you can see I've been in a bit of a chappy place this past year again.. but I'm finally helping myself for once.. and then.... a school friend has passed away at 28. Yes 28 years old.. due to covid 19, now she did have underlying so im trying to keep my shit together but I'm just so sad and angry at covid. Numbers are now becoming names. People we know, although its been shit ive surprisingly taken this news well.. like I haven't been any more anxious then I normally am I've tried to think rationally rather irrationally as usual but what I am finding hard is even when I'm finding i feel what I call normal I panic and feel anxious because I'm not used to this. Is this normal? Like regardless you can't win, also realised its my thoughts what send me into the whole anxiety spiral I let the bad thoughts take over and immediately think danger does anyone have any tips on how to kind of get rid of thoughts rather then acting like I've gone bat shit crazy and send myself into a panic? Its crazy how well I've been doing this past week and how I'm actually thinking I can maybe over come this anxiety thing.. hopefully. Health anxiety has always been the worst for me and now im just at a point where I think if I'm gonna die ill just die, can't fight fate an all that ? I've gotta stop being scared that I'm gonna just drop down dead.. today I even managed a long walk with my son and I haven't been able to do that in a while because I've been so bad so I'm super proud today. I guess my questions is basically..
1. How can I try and stop the bad thoughts before they make me panic?
2.Is it ok to feel anxious about feeling normal?
3. Any other tips on how to help myself further?
4.How to calm myself while out regarding "dropping down dead" or something bad happening?
Thanks for everyone's help over the years this sites always always helped me.