Honeyskye
07-02-21, 12:03
Hi
I've been doing pretty good for a few months down to the great of advice of the kind members on here. I've been coping pretty well with my anxiety considering we are in a pandemic. However...I'm really struggling at the moment. I've had a tough week with being busy at work, homeschooling an autistic child, looking after a 2 year old and I found out earlier in the week my auntie went into hospital with covid. I had a little breakdown around that time because I was so busy, the bad news, etc. I've not slept properly all week, I have been crying a lot and just feeling anxious again. I lay in bed the other night and felt like I had to keep taking deep breaths. I've had this before when I've been anxious but with everything going on I've frightened myself into thinking it's something else.
My auntie developed covid related pneumonia and sadly passed away last night. She died alone and all I can think about is her face in a mask, being frightened and not being able to hold anyone's hand as she passed. We are all devastated as we were so close to her. This has obviously caused me a lot of distress and left me feeling very frightened about the current situation again as it was so close to home. I also found out my cousin (her son) also tested positive and went out shopping knowing he had the virus. He doesn't wear a mask either. I'm stuck between grieving for my aunt and worrying about leaving the house because of selfish idiots like him putting everyone at risk. I am suddenly utterly terrified. I feel like I am over breathing and I can't catch a breath. I keep thinking it's anxiety but then I had it earlier in the week too. I suffer from post nasal drip so sometimes have a lot of phlegm (sorry) in my throat which makes me cough a little and you can feel it rattle in your throat a little. I feel like I am short of breath and a bit weezy in my throat but I don't actually know if I am and if it's because I'm worrying.
My job is super busy at the moment as I work in legals for the NHS and am helping with vaccination sites so I feel like it is constantly in my face and there's no escape and the walls are literally closing in on me. Also, the news is very negative at the moment too, it just feels like death and destruction all around. O read any article yesterday about the new strains and how they have detected them in certain postcodes so are telling people from those areas to go for a test even if they have just a runny nose. This feels like scaremongering at its finest but for someone like me who is anxious about such things, it sends me down a rabbit hole of pure fear.
Does it sound like anxiety I'm suffering from? Obviously any issues with breathing is freaking anyone out atm. I don't have any other symptoms other than feeling like I've been overbreathing and a bit weezy in my throat but I don't know if I'm just focusing on it.
Can anyone help?
I've been doing pretty good for a few months down to the great of advice of the kind members on here. I've been coping pretty well with my anxiety considering we are in a pandemic. However...I'm really struggling at the moment. I've had a tough week with being busy at work, homeschooling an autistic child, looking after a 2 year old and I found out earlier in the week my auntie went into hospital with covid. I had a little breakdown around that time because I was so busy, the bad news, etc. I've not slept properly all week, I have been crying a lot and just feeling anxious again. I lay in bed the other night and felt like I had to keep taking deep breaths. I've had this before when I've been anxious but with everything going on I've frightened myself into thinking it's something else.
My auntie developed covid related pneumonia and sadly passed away last night. She died alone and all I can think about is her face in a mask, being frightened and not being able to hold anyone's hand as she passed. We are all devastated as we were so close to her. This has obviously caused me a lot of distress and left me feeling very frightened about the current situation again as it was so close to home. I also found out my cousin (her son) also tested positive and went out shopping knowing he had the virus. He doesn't wear a mask either. I'm stuck between grieving for my aunt and worrying about leaving the house because of selfish idiots like him putting everyone at risk. I am suddenly utterly terrified. I feel like I am over breathing and I can't catch a breath. I keep thinking it's anxiety but then I had it earlier in the week too. I suffer from post nasal drip so sometimes have a lot of phlegm (sorry) in my throat which makes me cough a little and you can feel it rattle in your throat a little. I feel like I am short of breath and a bit weezy in my throat but I don't actually know if I am and if it's because I'm worrying.
My job is super busy at the moment as I work in legals for the NHS and am helping with vaccination sites so I feel like it is constantly in my face and there's no escape and the walls are literally closing in on me. Also, the news is very negative at the moment too, it just feels like death and destruction all around. O read any article yesterday about the new strains and how they have detected them in certain postcodes so are telling people from those areas to go for a test even if they have just a runny nose. This feels like scaremongering at its finest but for someone like me who is anxious about such things, it sends me down a rabbit hole of pure fear.
Does it sound like anxiety I'm suffering from? Obviously any issues with breathing is freaking anyone out atm. I don't have any other symptoms other than feeling like I've been overbreathing and a bit weezy in my throat but I don't know if I'm just focusing on it.
Can anyone help?