BasilCat
07-11-07, 12:02
Hi, I am Shirley and have had GAD since summer last year. I was getting over it during April. May and June this year and was 85% recovered, then, following an holiday to Scotland in July, I had a relapse in August and with it came different symptoms and different fear thoughts too. The trouble is that I spend far too much time alone and therefore I have got far too much time to think.
My main negative thoughts are:
I dont want to drive so far because of the unreality.
When I do go out I dont want to be so far away from my car.
I dont want to go out with friends in their cars as I would not be able to come home or leave when I wanted.
I dont want to go out with hubby and kids as I dont want them to see me "not right".
My main symptoms are:
Unreality ( I am there now)
Loss of balance due to being so tense.
Strange feelings in my head.
Shaking
Overbreathing (I am trying to learn how to slow my breathing down)
Being scared all the time.Watching myself all the time.
For example I have just been down to Boots where I can park outside and I was tense, watching my self and hoping that I wouldnt fall over with being tense and my balance not being good.
When I look at all the above in writing it looks ridiculous yet I camt seem to get over this and need some support - I am in tears whilst I sit here.
Thanks for listening. I am 50 years old by the way and have just had blood tests to check if I have started the Menopause or not as I have heard that one of the symptoms of it it anxiety.
If only I could get my mind off how I am feeling and loose the negative thoughts too.
Please Help. I am not going mad am I?
Shirley
My main negative thoughts are:
I dont want to drive so far because of the unreality.
When I do go out I dont want to be so far away from my car.
I dont want to go out with friends in their cars as I would not be able to come home or leave when I wanted.
I dont want to go out with hubby and kids as I dont want them to see me "not right".
My main symptoms are:
Unreality ( I am there now)
Loss of balance due to being so tense.
Strange feelings in my head.
Shaking
Overbreathing (I am trying to learn how to slow my breathing down)
Being scared all the time.Watching myself all the time.
For example I have just been down to Boots where I can park outside and I was tense, watching my self and hoping that I wouldnt fall over with being tense and my balance not being good.
When I look at all the above in writing it looks ridiculous yet I camt seem to get over this and need some support - I am in tears whilst I sit here.
Thanks for listening. I am 50 years old by the way and have just had blood tests to check if I have started the Menopause or not as I have heard that one of the symptoms of it it anxiety.
If only I could get my mind off how I am feeling and loose the negative thoughts too.
Please Help. I am not going mad am I?
Shirley