samtheman
10-11-07, 16:51
I've got to go to a wedding next week and am really really dreading it. Its on my wifes side of the family and I am seen as the odd ball at these types of things, The last one I went to last year I was left sitting in the corner by myself for 90% of the night, my wife went around all her cousins etc she hasn't seen and there was me sitting in the corner by myself watching match of the day:blush: . I felt so so low, almost like I could cry, infact I would go as far as suicidal, I've never felt that way before and never want to go back to that place. I can remember that night looking around me and thinking "I wonder if I did die would anyone here actually miss me?, Sure my wife would but she'll get over it and meet someone else" Imagine thinking that? But thats how low I felt,
Its not that I don't want to talk to these people I do but my mind just goes totally blank, even on the rare occasion when they do talk to me I get tongue tied and only give one word answers.
Now I admit at that last wedding I was at my lowest point with anxiety etc and since then I have cured my generalised anxiety but social anxiety still remains, add to that I have given up alcohol since and this will be very tempting.
I am just really at a loss as to what to do because as my other post in here explains I get really depressed from social anxiety and its only social anxiety that makes me depressed nothing else, what can I or should I do at this wedding, I can't cope with being johnny no mates again?
Its not that I don't want to talk to these people I do but my mind just goes totally blank, even on the rare occasion when they do talk to me I get tongue tied and only give one word answers.
Now I admit at that last wedding I was at my lowest point with anxiety etc and since then I have cured my generalised anxiety but social anxiety still remains, add to that I have given up alcohol since and this will be very tempting.
I am just really at a loss as to what to do because as my other post in here explains I get really depressed from social anxiety and its only social anxiety that makes me depressed nothing else, what can I or should I do at this wedding, I can't cope with being johnny no mates again?