MandaIsAnxious
27-05-21, 16:40
Thanks to any and all that take the time to read this and to those who might respond....I just need to get this off my chest somewhere.
This has been the most challenging year of my life, BY FAR!
Covid happened which was obviously challenging in itself and I transitioned to working full time in the office to full time at home with a 3 year old and 6 year at home. Then my 6 year old started kindergarten and my 3 year old went back to daycare.
In September I learned that my husband of 8 years had a child with another woman sometime in the last two years. This was devastating obviously and I have been in "put it off mode" ever since because I just do not want to deal with it and I have this awful guilt that I am going to take away the chance for my children to grow up in a two parent household even though It was not me who ruined the marriage vows.
Then in November my mother ended up in ICU and on a ventilator. Thankfully she is in great health now with no lasting effects.
Then I found out I have to move because my landlord wants to rent to their child....I have lived here for six years and my daughter JUST entered the school system here and I cannot find another place to rent in the area.
For the last month or so I have been in this intense health anxiety spiral about myself and my children...like...intense.
Currently my son has swollen glands on the back of his head and had a fever for two days and I am obviously fearing the worst. I cannot focus on anything and spend my day searching the internet which I know is so unhealthy. I brought him to urgent care last night and they said their gut is that he has something viral.
Can anyone relate to health anxiety returning full force during high stress times? I am at such a loss for what to do because my mind is being pulled in so many directions.
I am on Effexor and I see a therapist weekly but neither are doing much for me at the moment....
I'm just so sad and scared.
This has been the most challenging year of my life, BY FAR!
Covid happened which was obviously challenging in itself and I transitioned to working full time in the office to full time at home with a 3 year old and 6 year at home. Then my 6 year old started kindergarten and my 3 year old went back to daycare.
In September I learned that my husband of 8 years had a child with another woman sometime in the last two years. This was devastating obviously and I have been in "put it off mode" ever since because I just do not want to deal with it and I have this awful guilt that I am going to take away the chance for my children to grow up in a two parent household even though It was not me who ruined the marriage vows.
Then in November my mother ended up in ICU and on a ventilator. Thankfully she is in great health now with no lasting effects.
Then I found out I have to move because my landlord wants to rent to their child....I have lived here for six years and my daughter JUST entered the school system here and I cannot find another place to rent in the area.
For the last month or so I have been in this intense health anxiety spiral about myself and my children...like...intense.
Currently my son has swollen glands on the back of his head and had a fever for two days and I am obviously fearing the worst. I cannot focus on anything and spend my day searching the internet which I know is so unhealthy. I brought him to urgent care last night and they said their gut is that he has something viral.
Can anyone relate to health anxiety returning full force during high stress times? I am at such a loss for what to do because my mind is being pulled in so many directions.
I am on Effexor and I see a therapist weekly but neither are doing much for me at the moment....
I'm just so sad and scared.