Gryphoenix
12-11-07, 04:04
The fear of an attack after an attack, a sort of theoredical unstoppable panic attack that once you calmed down there was enough adrenaline in one to restart another attack: This is probably my biggest fear of late, even though I have beaten back a few of the fears I formerly had.
I had a bit of a short panic a few days ago and managed to make it through it alright, and I was fine, but I had the lingering thought with me for a few hours afterwards, since I remained tense and sort of on an adrenaline rush.
What if it happens again? I feel like it could happen again. I can't take it if it does, I'm already high strung and tired from the last one. Oh no, here comes another rush of adrenaline!
Face your fears: So what if it happens again? What WILL happen?
Nothing.
I've also been fearing not exactly the panic itself, but the sensations. The whole heart shebang and all that lovely exciting stuff. I know that panic will reach a peak and subside, it only lasts a few minutes anyway. But I hate the feeling of what it feels like. So I try to liken it to a cold. I hate the feeling of being on a cold, it's terrible and I feel like crap. Guess what I feel like when I have panics? Crap and terrible. Except when I have a cold I know that it's going to go away and not to worry about it.
So we should feel the same way about panics: simply a cold that will go away eventually. At least it only lasts for a few minutes--wish a cold would last only a few minutes!
(Writing this is a little therapudic for me, I've been having a bad go of it lately. :D Telling myself through this what to do, you know.)
I had a bit of a short panic a few days ago and managed to make it through it alright, and I was fine, but I had the lingering thought with me for a few hours afterwards, since I remained tense and sort of on an adrenaline rush.
What if it happens again? I feel like it could happen again. I can't take it if it does, I'm already high strung and tired from the last one. Oh no, here comes another rush of adrenaline!
Face your fears: So what if it happens again? What WILL happen?
Nothing.
I've also been fearing not exactly the panic itself, but the sensations. The whole heart shebang and all that lovely exciting stuff. I know that panic will reach a peak and subside, it only lasts a few minutes anyway. But I hate the feeling of what it feels like. So I try to liken it to a cold. I hate the feeling of being on a cold, it's terrible and I feel like crap. Guess what I feel like when I have panics? Crap and terrible. Except when I have a cold I know that it's going to go away and not to worry about it.
So we should feel the same way about panics: simply a cold that will go away eventually. At least it only lasts for a few minutes--wish a cold would last only a few minutes!
(Writing this is a little therapudic for me, I've been having a bad go of it lately. :D Telling myself through this what to do, you know.)