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06-07-21, 15:34
So life's been going okay and then bam, health anxiety strikes again...
This time (again) it is Leukemia. I am not new to this fear, last time this popped up it was about 3 years ago and I had ALL the symptoms and yet, no leukemia. The doctor was so sure that he didn't even test me. Maybe that was unwise but after all the talks with him, the symptoms disappeared.
Fast forward until now because I am having it pop up again. It started a few months ago when I started to feel overtired. Like I would get to work and want to go back to bed. That's a little uncommon for me, especially since a few months before that I was popping out of bed as soon as my alarm went off and I would head to the gym. Now I cannot wait to sleep...I've been pinning it to my job where I do almost nothing all day but sit at my desk for 9 hours. I've even started taking naps in my car at lunch which seem to really help. But it's still weird. And I have my fitness watch which tells me I only get 4-5.5 hours of sleep per night and it's a low quality sleep (where as a few months ago my percentages were in the 80-90's. Now it's maybe 60 on a good night.)
I have no aches or pains, hell not even any bruises outside of the ones I knew were there (from bumping into things or having the dog on my lap.) My appetite is good and I'm not losing weight. But for some reason with me being more tired it has sent me straight back to this hellish routine. Top that off with the fact that I have a cold now, which is the second one I've had in three months and that makes me anxious that my body isn't working properly.
I'm scared to go to the doctor because the last time I did, I was right in my diagnosis and was then sent to emergency surgery....
Just looking for assuring words or something. I'm now 3000 miles away from home and all alone in this. Just want to talk to similar people...
This time (again) it is Leukemia. I am not new to this fear, last time this popped up it was about 3 years ago and I had ALL the symptoms and yet, no leukemia. The doctor was so sure that he didn't even test me. Maybe that was unwise but after all the talks with him, the symptoms disappeared.
Fast forward until now because I am having it pop up again. It started a few months ago when I started to feel overtired. Like I would get to work and want to go back to bed. That's a little uncommon for me, especially since a few months before that I was popping out of bed as soon as my alarm went off and I would head to the gym. Now I cannot wait to sleep...I've been pinning it to my job where I do almost nothing all day but sit at my desk for 9 hours. I've even started taking naps in my car at lunch which seem to really help. But it's still weird. And I have my fitness watch which tells me I only get 4-5.5 hours of sleep per night and it's a low quality sleep (where as a few months ago my percentages were in the 80-90's. Now it's maybe 60 on a good night.)
I have no aches or pains, hell not even any bruises outside of the ones I knew were there (from bumping into things or having the dog on my lap.) My appetite is good and I'm not losing weight. But for some reason with me being more tired it has sent me straight back to this hellish routine. Top that off with the fact that I have a cold now, which is the second one I've had in three months and that makes me anxious that my body isn't working properly.
I'm scared to go to the doctor because the last time I did, I was right in my diagnosis and was then sent to emergency surgery....
Just looking for assuring words or something. I'm now 3000 miles away from home and all alone in this. Just want to talk to similar people...