I don' know what to do

[darlene85]

My life is living hell with HA and this pandemic worsened that. I am constatly worried about covid but I can't make myself to get vaccinated because I'm terrified of the vaccine. Also, I have unregulated Hashimoto, I haven't been to the doctor for very long and I am worried if I go now I'll catch covid so it is agony for me. I am living in such a hell that I am currently having a panic attack thinking I got covid from the takeout food that I ate last week. I see other people, vaccinated or not, enjoying the summer and here I am shaking and thinking I'll get sick or that I am already sick.

I am convinced I'll die or become paralyzed from the vaccine or die from covid and I can't help myself. I must go to the specialist to help me decide with the vaccine but how when I can't because I am in fear that I'll catch it there??

Help me please, I am desperate.

[Speranza]

Sweetheart you are the only one who can help you.

It's ok to be scared, lots of people are. Phone the specialist and talk to them. And take their advice.

xxx

[Catkins]

You could always request a phone consultation. Our local hospital have done that a lot due to Covid.

[darlene85]

I am going to the doctor on Monday probably, privately, I hope there won't be a lot of people. My anxiety is through the roof. Five days ago I was at the bank and no one wore mask properly and suddenly I feel tickling in my throat. I just want to hear that I can receive the vaccine because I really can't live in this hell anymore. This is livin' hell. Everyone is a threat, everywhere I go I see a threat.
If the doctor says to me that I can't get vaccinated I don't know what will I do, I just can't cope anymore. I hope she is not an antivaxxer.