sleepylea
16-11-07, 10:20
Hey everyone. I was diagnosed with PTSD after I had a horrid car crash in May. If I had had any passengers they would have been dead for sure. I came out of it with only a broken collar bone and a few cuts and bruises. But the ptsd is something I didnt think would happen to me, and didnt realise just how much it changes your life.
The guilt I feel is huge. The car was only a month old and was a gift from my partner, and I feel so bad for wrecking it so quickly and wasting his money. I dont have a job now because I cant hold one down, and all the financial burden is on him. I cant talk to him about it anymore because I feel after all this time I should have got over it.
Everything is falling apart because of what I did, and I dont think I can ever get over this. The doctor is rubbish and i have asked time and time again for help, but they dont. I think they are doing the watchful waiting, even though I have told them I cant carry on anymore and that I see myself cutting my wrists in the kitchen. I feel so low I dont think I can get up. I cant put this one anyone I know because they just dont understand.
I start a new job tonight, but I cant go, I am in peices because everything is going wrong, I cant sleep and it doesnt seem like this is my life. Please can someone tell meI will be fine and this is normal, because it certainly doesnt feel like it.
Sorry this wasnt supposed to get so emotional for my first post.
The guilt I feel is huge. The car was only a month old and was a gift from my partner, and I feel so bad for wrecking it so quickly and wasting his money. I dont have a job now because I cant hold one down, and all the financial burden is on him. I cant talk to him about it anymore because I feel after all this time I should have got over it.
Everything is falling apart because of what I did, and I dont think I can ever get over this. The doctor is rubbish and i have asked time and time again for help, but they dont. I think they are doing the watchful waiting, even though I have told them I cant carry on anymore and that I see myself cutting my wrists in the kitchen. I feel so low I dont think I can get up. I cant put this one anyone I know because they just dont understand.
I start a new job tonight, but I cant go, I am in peices because everything is going wrong, I cant sleep and it doesnt seem like this is my life. Please can someone tell meI will be fine and this is normal, because it certainly doesnt feel like it.
Sorry this wasnt supposed to get so emotional for my first post.