Crh371
13-10-21, 17:02
About 3 weeks ago I noticed on my upper thigh was 2 scabs. My mind immediately went to BAT, then rabies, then horrible death. Logically in order to have rabies you would need to SEE a bat. I did not. I have scoured my room for a dead one, in case it bit me while I was sleeping, I think I would have seen or felt one awake. I know that its more likely that I scratched some hair follicles or almost anything else, however I cannot get it out of my head. Now my"normal" anxiety symptoms all lead to beginning neurological stages of rabies. I cannot stop even though I know its ridiculous. How can I rationalize it and still be afraid, it makes no sense to me anymore. With anything else I could go have it checked and be done, with rabies the only way to know is to die. I could go get a vaccine treatment but no sane doctor will do it without reasonable cause and I cannot afford to pay out of pocket. I read it can take up to 13 months for it to happen sometimes how will I make it 13 months with the nagging possibilities?! Sorry to bother you all, Im not sure what Im looking for because I know no matter what is said I will still wonder.