BrokenGirl
20-10-21, 00:10
I know this is a long shot but I'm really hoping for some advice or guidance.
I've been on the forum for about 5 or 6 years now, mostly for HA. Many of you who have read some of my posts will know that I've had it quite bad at times, worried myself sick over what a lot of people would consider to be ridiculous issues. But to me they were real.
This worry was not always limited to HA. I've worried about non health related issues too, could be anything to do with any part of my life.
Things haven't been easy in my life for the past 10 or so years. Without going into too much detail, there have been so many times when life has just been absolute crap, felt like I couldn't take another blow. This obviously didn't help my HA and other non HA thoughts too.
I seem to be heading down that road again, where I am constantly worried about something. If it's not health related it will be something else. And the worry consumes me. It's like I can't stop the thoughts. My mind goes from 0 to 100 in a split second and I'm thinking the worst case scenario. The adrenaline starts pumping around my body and the whole vicious circle keeps going. It's constant worry, all the time. I get fixated on something and I can't let it go.
And the worst thing is I have no one to talk to. I can't talk to my husband any more because to be honest I know I'm doing his head in with my constant worries. I can't afford to pay for therapy / counselling. And there is no public mental health services here. What we have in this country is an absolute shambles and a disgrace. People are crying out for help but there's nothing there.
Has anyone ever found themselves in a similar situation? And because the worries are real to me I don't know if they are justified or not. I don't know if I'm over reacting or if there is a real cause for concern.
What do you do when a worry just eats you up all day? You can't stop thinking the worst and it puts so much fear into you. Just hoping someone can give even a little bit of advice, when meds and therapy are not an option.
I've been on the forum for about 5 or 6 years now, mostly for HA. Many of you who have read some of my posts will know that I've had it quite bad at times, worried myself sick over what a lot of people would consider to be ridiculous issues. But to me they were real.
This worry was not always limited to HA. I've worried about non health related issues too, could be anything to do with any part of my life.
Things haven't been easy in my life for the past 10 or so years. Without going into too much detail, there have been so many times when life has just been absolute crap, felt like I couldn't take another blow. This obviously didn't help my HA and other non HA thoughts too.
I seem to be heading down that road again, where I am constantly worried about something. If it's not health related it will be something else. And the worry consumes me. It's like I can't stop the thoughts. My mind goes from 0 to 100 in a split second and I'm thinking the worst case scenario. The adrenaline starts pumping around my body and the whole vicious circle keeps going. It's constant worry, all the time. I get fixated on something and I can't let it go.
And the worst thing is I have no one to talk to. I can't talk to my husband any more because to be honest I know I'm doing his head in with my constant worries. I can't afford to pay for therapy / counselling. And there is no public mental health services here. What we have in this country is an absolute shambles and a disgrace. People are crying out for help but there's nothing there.
Has anyone ever found themselves in a similar situation? And because the worries are real to me I don't know if they are justified or not. I don't know if I'm over reacting or if there is a real cause for concern.
What do you do when a worry just eats you up all day? You can't stop thinking the worst and it puts so much fear into you. Just hoping someone can give even a little bit of advice, when meds and therapy are not an option.