Heather1234
29-10-21, 15:53
Whew! October has been a month for me! It all started with finally deciding to stop the on/off relationship i had with cigarettes. Anyhow, then I decided I needed to face my fear of doctors (&health issues) and get an overall exam as im now 40. This began the anxieties...blood pressure, chest xray, lab results that I didn't understand, a weird spot in my throat, and then the mammogram. All good results, but not until my last test that was scheduled could I feel relief. One anxiety ran into the next. Its been exhausting & I've neglected my life. I feel guilty about that, but moving forward.
I told my husband last night that I felt like I had just dodged 10 bullets coming at me.
He said, I know you feel that way but these were routine tests. You created the bullets in your imagination. That really hit me. First I was defensive, then he reminded me that I hadn't been worried about any of these things before I knew I'd be tested for them. (Aside from the throat thing) He was right. I feel relieved at the moment & at peace. But I do realize that I have to try to prevent the same pattern behavior from continuing. I've got an apt with a counselor, so we shall see how that goes. They are not a psychiatrist so it will be more of CBT. I feel hopeful. Thank you for everyone that has helped reassure me and even give me the blunt truth too. [emoji1317][emoji177]
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I told my husband last night that I felt like I had just dodged 10 bullets coming at me.
He said, I know you feel that way but these were routine tests. You created the bullets in your imagination. That really hit me. First I was defensive, then he reminded me that I hadn't been worried about any of these things before I knew I'd be tested for them. (Aside from the throat thing) He was right. I feel relieved at the moment & at peace. But I do realize that I have to try to prevent the same pattern behavior from continuing. I've got an apt with a counselor, so we shall see how that goes. They are not a psychiatrist so it will be more of CBT. I feel hopeful. Thank you for everyone that has helped reassure me and even give me the blunt truth too. [emoji1317][emoji177]
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