cluelessworry
01-11-21, 22:55
I'm a 32 y/o female...I've had health anxiety since I was 11 years old. This curse has consumed th3 better part of my life.
I haven't had blood work done in about 3 years...I work at a Dr office and today my fears of having hiv have finally taken over and I had some blood work done.
When I tell you I can't think About ANYTHING but that I'm not lying. I'm CONSUMED.
I was already told I had fatty liver...I stopped drinking but started heavily drinking again due to constant stress and anxiety.
But that's the least of my concerns...on the beginning of maybe March 2020 I had unprotected intercourse on 3 different occasions with a guy I've not known too long...
It's going to be about 2 years now and a ear piercing infection I got last week that cause a lymph node to swell up took my health anxiety from 0 to 1000 real quick.
I've been loosing sleep over this...cannot enjoy Anything....I am consumed....this wait is going to get the best of me if It hasn't already...
I need some advice...as I don't have any close friends nor family I can rely on..much less the father of my children...I am the worst scum peice of shit on the planet 😭😭
I haven't had blood work done in about 3 years...I work at a Dr office and today my fears of having hiv have finally taken over and I had some blood work done.
When I tell you I can't think About ANYTHING but that I'm not lying. I'm CONSUMED.
I was already told I had fatty liver...I stopped drinking but started heavily drinking again due to constant stress and anxiety.
But that's the least of my concerns...on the beginning of maybe March 2020 I had unprotected intercourse on 3 different occasions with a guy I've not known too long...
It's going to be about 2 years now and a ear piercing infection I got last week that cause a lymph node to swell up took my health anxiety from 0 to 1000 real quick.
I've been loosing sleep over this...cannot enjoy Anything....I am consumed....this wait is going to get the best of me if It hasn't already...
I need some advice...as I don't have any close friends nor family I can rely on..much less the father of my children...I am the worst scum peice of shit on the planet 😭😭