Batman
13-11-21, 21:20
Hey all, I'm in a bit of a mess. I've been on 40mg citalopram for 5 years now, and it's basically been okay over that time. I've had ups and downs of course, but nothing unmanageable.
Yesterday, I began feeling a bit lost on my own world. It felt like everything was crumbling, and I was failing. Anything and everything was going wrong for me. By late afternoon I was a crying, paralysed mess on the floor as my husband came home from work. Luckily my 2 year old was napping... I was having cold sweats, I couldn't breathe, I hurt in every single joint and muscle in my body, my head was pounding like it was about to explode, I felt dizzy and light headed like I was about to pass out. I managed a somewhat okay night, after having shitty message from my employer about not going into work last night, my husband contacted them and had dealt with them since, to explain to them exactly where I'm at. today, I'm better but still having waves of all the above feelings, they come fiercely but then fade away. I'm filled with fear about facing anyone, I feel ashamed and embarrassed, I'm not at work tonight either but come Monday I imagine I will be but I'm scared what I'll face. I have never ever in my life has this before, I've been sick today, unable to keep food down. I don't know what to do, I'm drowning in my own body. I do have a supportive family, but I'm still embarrassed about this. What's happening? And why? What is this?
Yesterday, I began feeling a bit lost on my own world. It felt like everything was crumbling, and I was failing. Anything and everything was going wrong for me. By late afternoon I was a crying, paralysed mess on the floor as my husband came home from work. Luckily my 2 year old was napping... I was having cold sweats, I couldn't breathe, I hurt in every single joint and muscle in my body, my head was pounding like it was about to explode, I felt dizzy and light headed like I was about to pass out. I managed a somewhat okay night, after having shitty message from my employer about not going into work last night, my husband contacted them and had dealt with them since, to explain to them exactly where I'm at. today, I'm better but still having waves of all the above feelings, they come fiercely but then fade away. I'm filled with fear about facing anyone, I feel ashamed and embarrassed, I'm not at work tonight either but come Monday I imagine I will be but I'm scared what I'll face. I have never ever in my life has this before, I've been sick today, unable to keep food down. I don't know what to do, I'm drowning in my own body. I do have a supportive family, but I'm still embarrassed about this. What's happening? And why? What is this?