always scared
24-01-22, 16:57
This back and forth battle in my head is killing me 😭
I just know it's cancer!!! Everything I read yells cancer. But I am absolutely numb with fear! Terrified to death of going to get it checked out. This is a living nightmare that will only end in death.
I spend my whole day just crying and checking for more symptoms of spread. I don't want to be around anyone anymore and it's so hard to act normal around my family and pretend nothing is wrong. My kids can't understand why I seem so sad all the time.
I effin HATE THIS!
I just know it's cancer!!! Everything I read yells cancer. But I am absolutely numb with fear! Terrified to death of going to get it checked out. This is a living nightmare that will only end in death.
I spend my whole day just crying and checking for more symptoms of spread. I don't want to be around anyone anymore and it's so hard to act normal around my family and pretend nothing is wrong. My kids can't understand why I seem so sad all the time.
I effin HATE THIS!