Asterfall
02-02-22, 21:54
My first post here after checking it out awhile, but well I'm never good at talking with people. I'm 25 and have always suffered from anxiety, OCD and depression, and at the start of December I woke up one day and couldn't remember a name of something, and looked it up and instantly remembered it.
Naturally I made a mistake of googling symptoms of things from what you can probably guess from aphasia and a certain t word, and started worrying. I had pins and needles which went away, twitching which did the same, and then headaches when waking up that went away into the day and phoned the doctor over in January, and was told it's tension headaches. They've really stopped being a problem, but what has not is my other issues.
I'm constantly making mistakes when I'm speaking or saying the wrong words, though I instantly correct myself. Sometimes I'm thinking what I'm going to say internally and feels as if I jump ahead and say the wrong word, which I know is wrong, and then again correct myself over it. The other day my thoughts jumped ahead to say "I'm going to microwave the last piece of bread." instead of "toast" it which I planned on thinking to myself. Occasion I say a random wrong name such as "John" as "George" which again I instantly correct. Sometimes random nonsense has come to my mind when I'm thinking, sentences that make no sense, which again I was aware of and instantly correct. Sometimes I do it when I'm typing but again I'm able to instantly correct myself over it. I misread words at first glance lately and have to re-read to correct myself which again, I know I've misread them.
One day when visiting a relative in December they had an egg shaped vase which I couldn't make out at first, and I had a bit of a panic attack where I forced myself to remember what everything in the room was called, and naturally started getting myself confused and making mistakes. When I was home and calmed down, everything went back to normal beyond the above of saying wrong words.
I feel I'm hyper aware of this, or maybe it is my OCD causing all of this ? Normally it would bring images/words to mind which would trigger me, so maybe this is my new form of it ? My eyes feel a bit blurry aswell lately, though I spend most a day looking at a screen. Having red veins appear in eyes or eye twitches after lack of sleep and too much caffeine for example, and idk I'm instantly assuming and worrying the worst over this all due to it all. I'm panicking over every little detail health related lately.
I went nearly all of December and January only getting 3-5 hours sleep at times due to worrying, so maybe chronic sleep deprivation is responsible for this too alongside my OCD and anxiety ? I had a habit of staying up late until 1:30-2:00 long before this, which could have contributed too it ? I've been like this for over 2 months now, mainly the thinking/saying wrong words issue. But I've not lost any weight, I'm perfect able to function normally and eating, I remember all my passwords, and again I do always correct myself over this issues and know when I'm done them. I've only had nausea when worrying or after eating something very sweet/chocolatey
The anxiety of it all is becoming a bit too much, but I do have much better days over this, but again worrying over it all is not helping me. Wondering when I should phone the doctor again, or if this really is all just myself playing tricks on me and my anxiety/OCD at work among other factors ?
Thank you for reading/commenting should any of you do so :)
Naturally I made a mistake of googling symptoms of things from what you can probably guess from aphasia and a certain t word, and started worrying. I had pins and needles which went away, twitching which did the same, and then headaches when waking up that went away into the day and phoned the doctor over in January, and was told it's tension headaches. They've really stopped being a problem, but what has not is my other issues.
I'm constantly making mistakes when I'm speaking or saying the wrong words, though I instantly correct myself. Sometimes I'm thinking what I'm going to say internally and feels as if I jump ahead and say the wrong word, which I know is wrong, and then again correct myself over it. The other day my thoughts jumped ahead to say "I'm going to microwave the last piece of bread." instead of "toast" it which I planned on thinking to myself. Occasion I say a random wrong name such as "John" as "George" which again I instantly correct. Sometimes random nonsense has come to my mind when I'm thinking, sentences that make no sense, which again I was aware of and instantly correct. Sometimes I do it when I'm typing but again I'm able to instantly correct myself over it. I misread words at first glance lately and have to re-read to correct myself which again, I know I've misread them.
One day when visiting a relative in December they had an egg shaped vase which I couldn't make out at first, and I had a bit of a panic attack where I forced myself to remember what everything in the room was called, and naturally started getting myself confused and making mistakes. When I was home and calmed down, everything went back to normal beyond the above of saying wrong words.
I feel I'm hyper aware of this, or maybe it is my OCD causing all of this ? Normally it would bring images/words to mind which would trigger me, so maybe this is my new form of it ? My eyes feel a bit blurry aswell lately, though I spend most a day looking at a screen. Having red veins appear in eyes or eye twitches after lack of sleep and too much caffeine for example, and idk I'm instantly assuming and worrying the worst over this all due to it all. I'm panicking over every little detail health related lately.
I went nearly all of December and January only getting 3-5 hours sleep at times due to worrying, so maybe chronic sleep deprivation is responsible for this too alongside my OCD and anxiety ? I had a habit of staying up late until 1:30-2:00 long before this, which could have contributed too it ? I've been like this for over 2 months now, mainly the thinking/saying wrong words issue. But I've not lost any weight, I'm perfect able to function normally and eating, I remember all my passwords, and again I do always correct myself over this issues and know when I'm done them. I've only had nausea when worrying or after eating something very sweet/chocolatey
The anxiety of it all is becoming a bit too much, but I do have much better days over this, but again worrying over it all is not helping me. Wondering when I should phone the doctor again, or if this really is all just myself playing tricks on me and my anxiety/OCD at work among other factors ?
Thank you for reading/commenting should any of you do so :)