flygirl767
13-02-22, 11:48
Hi so after 2 years of my HA being dormant, it is back with avengence and it is all my fault! Had my smear test last week and the nurse noticed an issue which she said needed referring to Gyne. I was actually okay with this as she was very reassuring and I didn't give it much thought until last weekend when for some unknown reason, I started googling (yeah, I know!!). I ended up going down the rabbit hole of Cervical Cancer. I read things that I now can't un-see and am convinced I have it as I had some issues a few years ago which were checked out and I was deemed low risk.
I know it is a rare cancer, I know I have had 3 negative tests in the last 5 years but I am beside myself. The referral will probably take some weeks and I just don't know how to cope as my mind is occupied with it from the minute I get up to the minute I fall asleep. I am feeling pains in my lower abdomen and honestly feel like I am going mad! I am normally a confident and relaxed person, very rarely ill and I don't suffer from general anxiety. I have started doing the CBT workbooks as recommended on here and I am on the list for NHS CBT but it is a long wait. I know why I have HA due to losing two close family members to cancer but I just don't know how to deal with it. Any help and advice appreciated!
I know it is a rare cancer, I know I have had 3 negative tests in the last 5 years but I am beside myself. The referral will probably take some weeks and I just don't know how to cope as my mind is occupied with it from the minute I get up to the minute I fall asleep. I am feeling pains in my lower abdomen and honestly feel like I am going mad! I am normally a confident and relaxed person, very rarely ill and I don't suffer from general anxiety. I have started doing the CBT workbooks as recommended on here and I am on the list for NHS CBT but it is a long wait. I know why I have HA due to losing two close family members to cancer but I just don't know how to deal with it. Any help and advice appreciated!