Elliejane44
11-04-22, 14:53
Hi
I not sure why I am posting on here again to be honest but it sometimes helps to even just write it down. I have been posting on and off for a number of years . I get periods of months sometimes even a year when I don't suffer then I get a trigger and it all comes back. My trigger this time was a womb scare in December which turnout to be begign . However ever since December I have been on full alert to my body and also my family as well. I feel like one of those meerkats constantly looking for a threat every hour ever day.
About a month ago I got a strange skin thing like where spots appeared for no reason that were really itchy. I got a cream from gp which I had to apply all over my body 4 times a day. The cream worked and gradually I stopped getting any more. However when I was applying the cream one time I noticed a new mark near my knee that I never seen before . It was light brown , reasonable size, irregular border and not symmetrical . I phoned to book a gp to check it and got one today. When waiting for the appointment I also noticed a small nodule on my nose like a pimple but it is not a pimple. On googling I think it looks like a bcc so really worried but I don't understand why 2 different types of things have just appeared now .
I saw the gp today hoping she would say both were fine and no action needed but for both spots she said she wanted me to be referred to see a dermatologist. I was so upset and broke down in surgery.
I just had my first day off work today in 2022 and was looking forward to a week with my family and feel this it totally ruining it. My husband and I are not getting on well at all just now and he struggles to cope with me when I like this as well.
I also just so tired of feeling this way and kinda of place that I not sure if I can carry on anymore . It is ruining my life now . I can honest say since Dec I not had one day I not been worrying or anything. I was 50 last week and also feel a lot of it is connected to my hormones.
I came off my medication last August as I did not feel it was helping so that is also worrying me as I not sure if I should try another or not . I feel today that I have sort of given up on myself and just can't manage anymore . I don't feel anxious now just very sad and like it there any point anymore.
Anyway thanks for listening .
Ellie
I not sure why I am posting on here again to be honest but it sometimes helps to even just write it down. I have been posting on and off for a number of years . I get periods of months sometimes even a year when I don't suffer then I get a trigger and it all comes back. My trigger this time was a womb scare in December which turnout to be begign . However ever since December I have been on full alert to my body and also my family as well. I feel like one of those meerkats constantly looking for a threat every hour ever day.
About a month ago I got a strange skin thing like where spots appeared for no reason that were really itchy. I got a cream from gp which I had to apply all over my body 4 times a day. The cream worked and gradually I stopped getting any more. However when I was applying the cream one time I noticed a new mark near my knee that I never seen before . It was light brown , reasonable size, irregular border and not symmetrical . I phoned to book a gp to check it and got one today. When waiting for the appointment I also noticed a small nodule on my nose like a pimple but it is not a pimple. On googling I think it looks like a bcc so really worried but I don't understand why 2 different types of things have just appeared now .
I saw the gp today hoping she would say both were fine and no action needed but for both spots she said she wanted me to be referred to see a dermatologist. I was so upset and broke down in surgery.
I just had my first day off work today in 2022 and was looking forward to a week with my family and feel this it totally ruining it. My husband and I are not getting on well at all just now and he struggles to cope with me when I like this as well.
I also just so tired of feeling this way and kinda of place that I not sure if I can carry on anymore . It is ruining my life now . I can honest say since Dec I not had one day I not been worrying or anything. I was 50 last week and also feel a lot of it is connected to my hormones.
I came off my medication last August as I did not feel it was helping so that is also worrying me as I not sure if I should try another or not . I feel today that I have sort of given up on myself and just can't manage anymore . I don't feel anxious now just very sad and like it there any point anymore.
Anyway thanks for listening .
Ellie