Seffie
06-09-22, 15:15
I've had anxiety, mostly health anxiety, for years but it always shows up the same way with physical symptoms etc. I have had a difficult 4-5 years-lost my dad after he was unwell for 18 months, my brother got cancer & we lost him last October-he was only 63 & watching him be so ill was traumatic. During this time I also developed CFS which I still have but feel I am much better & starting to recover.
So for the past 2 weeks my husband was working away & my son lives 5 hours away so have been living on my own. I felt my health anxiety increase, plus I felt trembly on some days & just overall apprehensive. Then last week I had this strange 'depressed' feeling wash over me, it didn't last long but I just felt flat & kind of hopeless. This only lasted around 10 seconds, I should say I've never had depression in my life other than usual low mood that people sometimes get due to life events.
I also seem to be hyperaware of myself & my thoughts, like there's another part of me watching what I do, it's not really like DP/DR but just feel too self aware somehow. I can think / function normally but just feel this pressing sense of self & of course this is triggering my health anxiety. I'm not on any medication & don't want to be. I just wanted to know if this is 'normal' for anxiety. I don't think I have had it before & as life was starting to improve not sure where this anxiety feeling has come from, other than being on my own a lot. My husband was home yesterday & I felt pretty normal all day but woke up with this weird feeling again today. Thanks
So for the past 2 weeks my husband was working away & my son lives 5 hours away so have been living on my own. I felt my health anxiety increase, plus I felt trembly on some days & just overall apprehensive. Then last week I had this strange 'depressed' feeling wash over me, it didn't last long but I just felt flat & kind of hopeless. This only lasted around 10 seconds, I should say I've never had depression in my life other than usual low mood that people sometimes get due to life events.
I also seem to be hyperaware of myself & my thoughts, like there's another part of me watching what I do, it's not really like DP/DR but just feel too self aware somehow. I can think / function normally but just feel this pressing sense of self & of course this is triggering my health anxiety. I'm not on any medication & don't want to be. I just wanted to know if this is 'normal' for anxiety. I don't think I have had it before & as life was starting to improve not sure where this anxiety feeling has come from, other than being on my own a lot. My husband was home yesterday & I felt pretty normal all day but woke up with this weird feeling again today. Thanks