GadGirl
29-09-22, 20:08
So.. April I posted in the success stories section. Then unfortunately in June I went really badly down hill again. I started getting burning in my stomach and burping up food and acid. I ended up having lots of ectopic beats more than I had, had in a long time. I visited a cardiologist whom said he heard a heart murmur. This resulted in me having a Holter monitor for 11 days, and ecg and and echocardiogram. Results all came back normal except for persistent tachycardia and ectopic beats but the murmur was deemed just a murmur and of no concern. That being said I have been a mess since. I thought I would feel calm and reassured but I haven't if anything I feel worse and I know how stupid it sounds. But I am terrified everyday that i am going to have a heart attack or cardiac arrest. I have had Health Anxiety for many years on and off and my heart is one that comes around frequent but usually disappears again. It hasn't this time its been 14 weeks of unrelenting anxiety everyday. I started having panic attacks but they went away in august after 2 weeks of panic attacks everyday. My body is so tense, I keep tensing and holding my breathe pretty much all day that I am in agony and my arms are sore. I keep getting this almighty pressure feeling/ Achy Lump feeling in my upper stomach in the middle between the ribs. I am sure its my stomach but I get very scared it is my heart as sometimes the feeling of pressure goes up a little to between the bottom of my breasts. So I automatically think heart attack and think I'm going to die. I haven't been this bad in a really long time. I am trying to use logical reasoning but finding it really hard at the moment. I just want to go back to my normal base line GAD and not this heart attack fear all day everyday. I have started religiously taking my BP and pulse so many times a day again as well. I have even bought a stethoscope to hear my murmur Its ridiculous.
Does anyone have any advice, support etc I am really struggling at the moment. :weep:
Does anyone have any advice, support etc I am really struggling at the moment. :weep: