eshan
16-02-05, 13:46
hi everyone, ive just been diagnosed as having OCD and its taken over my life to an extent where i cant do anything and i just want 2 give up on life.
its quite hard 2 explainhow it works but ive had it 4 a couple of years now, but not as severe as it is now. to give a brief history it kinda of originated frm the fact that i used to let things get 2 me, so if i had a problem that problem would keep coming up in my mind all the time no matter what i would do. after that it developed into things coming into my mind, but instead of it being related to a problem it was about nothing, it was just a blank thought, but it was a disturbance that kept coming into my mind. so for example if i was talking to someone, this blank thought would keep coming up in my mind, and it was just a disturbnace to my natural thinking pattern. nyway it used 2 come and go whilst i was at uni and it was managable but now its gone quite severe.
ive started to apply it now to loads of scenarios, so for example when im changing gears ive said 2 myself everytime i change gear that blank thought is gonna come in my head. so ny normal person driving changes gears automatically without thinking about it, but everytime i change gear, all my normal thought stop and all i think about it is evrytime i change the gear.
now its gone so bad that mind is just concentrating on everything going on around me, for cars driving past, people talking, for example evrytime time someone walks past me, thats all i think about, or every car that drives past me, thats all my mind turns to, or if im in my house, if someone is making a noise thats all im thiinking about. even if im watching television, every time the screenshot changes thats all my mind is thinking about, ive even apllied it to the situation that every time i blink, i thnink about every time i blink. Its killing me off, and i cant stand life. the doctor is looking for a therapist 4 me, but i just want 2 knw if ny of u guys have had or know of similar probs im having and if theres a way of overcoming it, cos i cant see no way out.
thanks for ur time
esh
its quite hard 2 explainhow it works but ive had it 4 a couple of years now, but not as severe as it is now. to give a brief history it kinda of originated frm the fact that i used to let things get 2 me, so if i had a problem that problem would keep coming up in my mind all the time no matter what i would do. after that it developed into things coming into my mind, but instead of it being related to a problem it was about nothing, it was just a blank thought, but it was a disturbance that kept coming into my mind. so for example if i was talking to someone, this blank thought would keep coming up in my mind, and it was just a disturbnace to my natural thinking pattern. nyway it used 2 come and go whilst i was at uni and it was managable but now its gone quite severe.
ive started to apply it now to loads of scenarios, so for example when im changing gears ive said 2 myself everytime i change gear that blank thought is gonna come in my head. so ny normal person driving changes gears automatically without thinking about it, but everytime i change gear, all my normal thought stop and all i think about it is evrytime i change the gear.
now its gone so bad that mind is just concentrating on everything going on around me, for cars driving past, people talking, for example evrytime time someone walks past me, thats all i think about, or every car that drives past me, thats all my mind turns to, or if im in my house, if someone is making a noise thats all im thiinking about. even if im watching television, every time the screenshot changes thats all my mind is thinking about, ive even apllied it to the situation that every time i blink, i thnink about every time i blink. Its killing me off, and i cant stand life. the doctor is looking for a therapist 4 me, but i just want 2 knw if ny of u guys have had or know of similar probs im having and if theres a way of overcoming it, cos i cant see no way out.
thanks for ur time
esh