WorriedOlive
30-11-22, 08:58
I’m not really sure what I’m looking for out of this post, as I know many of these thoughts are irrational and many women go through childbirth a year. I’m really struggling with sticky negative thoughts and visions of me dying during childbirth with my husband left in the room with a new baby whilst I’m being wheeled away, the thoughts are very traumatic and scary.
I’ve come across a video on my FYP on tiktok of a women sharing her experience with amniotic fluid embolism, which cannot be prevented and is very sudden and extremely life threatening, and now I’m terrified it’s going to happen to me. What was a very happy exciting time has suddenly become one filled with fear, and I’m now constantly researching/worrying/waking up in the night with a strong feeling of impending doom.
I’m ashamed to say it’s made me question whether I’ve even made the right choice in trying for a baby, which is awful I know.
I have a midwife appointment today and not sure if I should mention my fears to her.
Thanks for reading my ramble!
I’ve come across a video on my FYP on tiktok of a women sharing her experience with amniotic fluid embolism, which cannot be prevented and is very sudden and extremely life threatening, and now I’m terrified it’s going to happen to me. What was a very happy exciting time has suddenly become one filled with fear, and I’m now constantly researching/worrying/waking up in the night with a strong feeling of impending doom.
I’m ashamed to say it’s made me question whether I’ve even made the right choice in trying for a baby, which is awful I know.
I have a midwife appointment today and not sure if I should mention my fears to her.
Thanks for reading my ramble!