greeneyedgirl
30-11-22, 15:39
I posted this time last year regarding my extreme worries about pancreatic cancer. I went through various tests and an MRI with contrast put my mind at rest and, lo and behold, my symptoms went away. I had some therapy and felt I was doing better.
Then the autumn/winter creeps around again and the familiar feelings are back. This time it feels worse than ever before. I am having a range of symptoms that I have told myself must mean I have a brain tumour:
- I started with a twitch in my eyelid about 7 weeks ago, which I initially ignored, as I know the vast majority are benign and mean nothing. I reduced caffeine, alcohol, had more sleep but it remained. I saw a contact lens specialist who said that they couldn't see any physical reason for it ie. a scratch etc.
- About two weeks ago, I started with whole body jerks (myoclonic jerks?) which happen when I am at rest and awake, not just as I am falling asleep. They were happening really often - can be as often as one every minute - I'd say up to 100 x a day. I'm also getting buzzing and twitching. This is happening in my arms, legs, torso, head, feet, hands. I thought back to the previous few months and realised that I have had a body jerk in my right hand when on the laptop for several months, and not long after that the head one developed. These were very occasional - say once every few days. Nothing like what I am experiencing now. Crucially, these started after reading something online about eye twitches not being related to brain tumours but that widespread body twitches/jerks are a neurological worry. Then, of course, they started.
- It has sent me spiralling because I have linked these symptoms with a nasal into head shooting pain, like almost nerve pain, which I have had since 2020 and was part of my pc worries.
- I feel dizzy and sick. I'm also aware that over the last 6 months or so I feel like I sometimes struggle to find the right words or mix words up every so often (all probably through anxiety).
- I've had tinnitus since my late teens but, suddenly, I'm noticing it much more.
I've spoken with my Dr, who carried out basic neurological tests and thinks that it could be my health anxiety. I was given 2 weeks worth of diazepam to try but only took it on one occasion so far and still felt anxious and the symptoms remained. I've got a follow up next week. I'm so worried that I have a brain tumour. I'm trying to hold all of my stress and anxiety in because I ruined last year's Christmas for my family with my self-obsessed and frantic behaviour. However, it's so hard when my body is physically moving and jerking!
Thanks for reading.
Then the autumn/winter creeps around again and the familiar feelings are back. This time it feels worse than ever before. I am having a range of symptoms that I have told myself must mean I have a brain tumour:
- I started with a twitch in my eyelid about 7 weeks ago, which I initially ignored, as I know the vast majority are benign and mean nothing. I reduced caffeine, alcohol, had more sleep but it remained. I saw a contact lens specialist who said that they couldn't see any physical reason for it ie. a scratch etc.
- About two weeks ago, I started with whole body jerks (myoclonic jerks?) which happen when I am at rest and awake, not just as I am falling asleep. They were happening really often - can be as often as one every minute - I'd say up to 100 x a day. I'm also getting buzzing and twitching. This is happening in my arms, legs, torso, head, feet, hands. I thought back to the previous few months and realised that I have had a body jerk in my right hand when on the laptop for several months, and not long after that the head one developed. These were very occasional - say once every few days. Nothing like what I am experiencing now. Crucially, these started after reading something online about eye twitches not being related to brain tumours but that widespread body twitches/jerks are a neurological worry. Then, of course, they started.
- It has sent me spiralling because I have linked these symptoms with a nasal into head shooting pain, like almost nerve pain, which I have had since 2020 and was part of my pc worries.
- I feel dizzy and sick. I'm also aware that over the last 6 months or so I feel like I sometimes struggle to find the right words or mix words up every so often (all probably through anxiety).
- I've had tinnitus since my late teens but, suddenly, I'm noticing it much more.
I've spoken with my Dr, who carried out basic neurological tests and thinks that it could be my health anxiety. I was given 2 weeks worth of diazepam to try but only took it on one occasion so far and still felt anxious and the symptoms remained. I've got a follow up next week. I'm so worried that I have a brain tumour. I'm trying to hold all of my stress and anxiety in because I ruined last year's Christmas for my family with my self-obsessed and frantic behaviour. However, it's so hard when my body is physically moving and jerking!
Thanks for reading.